In the cartoon South Park, Satan is depicted as old school: Red skin, horns, tail and cloven hoof. And he is a homosexual - his lover was Sadaam Hussein. South Park has some tongue-in-cheek humor, so I thought I'd look closer.
Satan is also depicted as Effeminant on the Power Puff Girls. He is referred to as "Him", which is part of the joke.
I finally found some source material. Most Christians believe that God created the family, and anything that attempts to breakdown the nuclear family is evil (from Satan). Since Homosexuality does not produce offspring, which is a commandment from the Garden of Eden, it is of the devil. So that is one link between Homosexuality and Satan.
Most Christians don't believe humans existed in any form before birth. They do believe that Satan existed before the earth was made. Some apochrypha mention that demons lust after women.
Mormons took it a step further. Mormons believe that humans existed as spirits before being born, and that Satan (then known as Lucifer) was one of them. Lucifer was slated to come to earth and be born as a human, but then rebelled, and was cast out. His everlasting punishment is that he will never receive a physical body. Mormons extrapolate that since Satan will never produce offspring, that there is more of a connection between Satan and Homosexuals
Up until know, this discussion has been more or less doctrinal. Mormon culture makes the huge assumption that Satan is Gay. I do not know if a Church Leader has made any statement that could have been interpreted this way, so I put the source of this on the Mormon Rumor-Mill.
The creators of South Park like the Mormons, and probably got this idea for them. IMHO, one of the funniest scenes in South Park is Satan giving an orientation to the newly dead for the day. Several are confused and don't know why they are in hell, since they believed their religion was correct. So Satan clears it up for them: The true Religion is Mooormon. MORMON. so now let's get on with it...
South Park also depicts heaven as full of Mormons who get excited by the hundreds for the idea of making cute bunny rabbit figures from egg cartons.
So that is my opinion - the concept that Satan is Gay comes from the LDS community.
Thursday, November 10, 2011
Saturday, October 15, 2011
My Older Brother is a Cool Guy
My Older brother told me today of his experience of spending less than a year in a county prison. The things we spoke about tell a lot about who he is. When you first get in Prison, you go into lockup. That means no contact with anyone for a few days. You only come out of your cell for an hour, and that is after everyone has gone to bed.
They given out flu shots that day. One of the other guys in lockup spoke through is door, asking my Brother to help arrange for a flu shot for him. The Evening nurse came with the evening meds. My Brother would get Xanax because he was wound up too tight. He explained to the nurse about how he and the other guy weren't able to get flu shots because they are locked up all day.
After dispensing all the meds, she left the prison, prepared the shots, demanded to be let back in, and gave them the shots. My borther was able to see the guy when she gave him the shot, he was taller than my borther (which means he was very tall) and full of muscles and an African American. He gave my Brother a thumbs up - they were friends.
My Brother food was served in-cell. My Brother would save parts of his meal to pass out to others. Another way to make friends.
There are 2 kinds pf people in prison - crazy guys and murderers. The crazy guys were useless, so my brother would make friends with the murderers, to have some protection from the other murders,
When he was put in the general population, he had a cellmate. The term for that was cellie. My brothers cellie was crazy, always talking to himself and never slept.
The cells had no bars. They were enclosed in walls. There was only one slot which was used to slip food in, When you had to fart, the protocol was to fart into the hole, so it went outside.
Prisoners with good behavior could get out of their cells, but they are expected to work. They would be the one's delivering food to other cells. so if you made friends with them, you would get more food.
Once, my brother's cellie had to fart, and as he farted out the hole, the food server just walked by. The guy on the outside responded by body-slamming the door really hard and shouting - "I'M GONNA KILL YOU". At which point, the cellie had a melt down.
The cellie was talking to himself fast. Oh no, He's gonna kill me. What am I gonna do? etc.
My brother called out from the food hole - hey, my cellie is really scared. He didn't know you were there. Please don't kill him. The outside guy said: Oh, I was just mad. I'm not gonna kill him.
The cellie calmed down. My brother told the cellie that when they got out of the cell the next day that he should be sure to apologize to the outside guy.
They given out flu shots that day. One of the other guys in lockup spoke through is door, asking my Brother to help arrange for a flu shot for him. The Evening nurse came with the evening meds. My Brother would get Xanax because he was wound up too tight. He explained to the nurse about how he and the other guy weren't able to get flu shots because they are locked up all day.
After dispensing all the meds, she left the prison, prepared the shots, demanded to be let back in, and gave them the shots. My borther was able to see the guy when she gave him the shot, he was taller than my borther (which means he was very tall) and full of muscles and an African American. He gave my Brother a thumbs up - they were friends.
My Brother food was served in-cell. My Brother would save parts of his meal to pass out to others. Another way to make friends.
There are 2 kinds pf people in prison - crazy guys and murderers. The crazy guys were useless, so my brother would make friends with the murderers, to have some protection from the other murders,
When he was put in the general population, he had a cellmate. The term for that was cellie. My brothers cellie was crazy, always talking to himself and never slept.
The cells had no bars. They were enclosed in walls. There was only one slot which was used to slip food in, When you had to fart, the protocol was to fart into the hole, so it went outside.
Prisoners with good behavior could get out of their cells, but they are expected to work. They would be the one's delivering food to other cells. so if you made friends with them, you would get more food.
Once, my brother's cellie had to fart, and as he farted out the hole, the food server just walked by. The guy on the outside responded by body-slamming the door really hard and shouting - "I'M GONNA KILL YOU". At which point, the cellie had a melt down.
The cellie was talking to himself fast. Oh no, He's gonna kill me. What am I gonna do? etc.
My brother called out from the food hole - hey, my cellie is really scared. He didn't know you were there. Please don't kill him. The outside guy said: Oh, I was just mad. I'm not gonna kill him.
The cellie calmed down. My brother told the cellie that when they got out of the cell the next day that he should be sure to apologize to the outside guy.
Thursday, October 6, 2011
Creation-Evolution Confusion Profusion
I am watching a series of 3 episodes of a NOVA special called "Becoming Human" When I am done, I am going to study the details so I capture it in my mind - the exact details.
(I just took a break to clean my keyboard. It was so dirty, the ENTER key was starting to stick down.)
Now that we have mapped the human genome, people quote stat about the % of difference between the genome of 2 species. The problem with this is something called Junk. The vast majority (98%) of the humane Genome is called JUNK. The statement is that that portion of the Genome does nothing. The explanation is that if this genome came into being from evolutionary forces, you would expect a lot of randomness within the order.
I don't like that they call it junk. It is the scientific equivalent of saying "Pay no attention to the man behind the curtain". That portion of our DNA does nothing IN SO FAR AS WE KNOW NOW.
So when people compare genomes between species, are they only comparing the 2 %, or are they comparing all of the genome. If you are comparing it for the purpose of understanding evolution, you have to compare all of it, Junk and all. They don't tell you what they are comparing. it makes me uneasy. There has always been scientific mockery - PiltDown Man, The Biogenic Law, Java Man. Which voices are trustworthy.
There is a concept called the Molecular Clock. This is how it works.
DNA is a double helix. Each half of the DNA are negative reflections of each other. The 4 sugars A, T, G and C can only combine in fixed ways. For DNA to reproduce, it must split in half. We have duplicated this process in many labs, and we have machines now that automate this for scientific application - one of the main tools of biotech. If we put a sample of DNA in a primer soup of the 4 sugars, and heat the mixture up to a specific temperature (its not real high - can't remember), the halfs of the DNAwill come apart like a zipper. The horizontal bonds between sugars is weaker than the vertical bonds of the sugars. So it comes completely apart into 2 long strands. After heating the mix for a specific period, the mixture is cooled down. Again, not very cool, the range of temperatures used is not large. as it cools down, each DNA half begins to build back it's negative reflection using the free molecules of sugar in the primer soup. They have to keep it at that temperature for a specific time to give the DNA halfs enough time to completely create it's negative reflection and have a complete double helix again - but now you have 2 of them. Do this over and over again, and the DNA really starts to accumulate.
But its not perfect. Sometimes the negative reflection isn't completed, so in the next split, you are also duplicating partial DNA strands. Or perhaps the double helix does rezip back up completely, but has straggling ends of the DNA halfs that don't match up horizontally, but continue to attach primal sugars to extend the strand vertically.
This happens in real life, too. It is called a mutation. The Molecular clock is a statistical model. It postulates that since the DNA is so long, it will create errors at a somewhat constant rate. We can assume it is happening, we just don't know where it is happening.
So, knowing the period of the Molecular clock (which we actually don't know - it's relative to itself - so needs to be calibrated with other evidence - like dating fossil evidence - which is a huge assumption. I am not questioning the dating methods because there are many dating techniques - not just carbon 14. I am questioning the assumption that the fossils chosen for the calibration are in any way related. They are fossils - meaning no organic matter. There is no proof that they are of the same Genus - just the relative shape of the rock)
The nearest living genetic neighbor to humans is Chimpanzees (IN SO FAR AS WE KNOW) So the estimate that counting the differences between the Genomes can be a basis for determining how long ago the 2 Species had a common ancestor. But what are they comparing/counting - the 2% or the 100%. If the 2%, then they could be off my 2 orders of magnitude - huge margin of error.
But they estimate that the common ancestor was from 6 million years ago. Except they don't mention that this is the earliest that this common ancestor could have existed. It could have been earlier - much earlier. The bigger the number of differences, the bigger the "much earlier" can be.
So how long before we start mapping a genome for many species. I heard that one company was mapping the genome of the white laboratory mouse. And once we have the maps, how long before we can start comparing them using the molecular clock to guestimate the earliest time period to reach a common ancestor.
When we do that, will those numbers match up to the entirity of the fossil record. The data will be skewed in favor of the fossil record because the molecular clock is calibrated using the fossil record. But even with that, will there be contradictions - a puzzle that cannot be put together.
People are getting creative. There are other dating methods not based on the concept of atomic half-life. If we calibrate using only those new methods, will something completely different result
when comparing the genomes of all living mammals.
and, as I have said before, the fossil record is really inadequate to make any connections. We have known what we are looking for, for 60 years, and haven't found that much of it. We have only identified 5 fossils of Genus Homo, and it only goes back 3 million years. That's a 3 million year gap to make the 6 million years to find the common ancestor of our nearest living genetic neighbor.
There are approximately 10,000 invertebrate species on earth IN SO FAR AS WE KNOW NOW. Invertebrate means having a spine - so there can be fossils. So the MINIMUM number of fossils we have to find to connect all living species of invertibrates in a genetically linked network is 10,000 (assuming a binary split for each step backwards in the evolutionary link network).
The number is probably MUCH higher - now that we assume that there are at least 5 links between Homo Sapien to get half way to our first significant evolutionary link.
The network of evolutionary significant invertebrate links could be MUCH MUCH more than 10,000. It could be several billion based on current assumptions.
So how many fossils have we found so far that a majority of Paleontologists accepted as representing a significant evolutionary link. It is hard to find this out. It is buried. No one wants to talk about it. Go ahead - search the WWW. You won't find it.
The best I have come up with is less than 1000. Could be less than 100, depending on how strict you are in your selection criteria. There is a lot of disagreement between experts.
It's a ruse. The fossil evidence does not support the level of conviction I see in the public and the scientific community. There is other evidence that is quite compelling. But the question to answer is if evolution happened HERE - ON EARTH. The only evidence that can be used to determine that is the fossil record.
If they were honest, the would conclude that the earth was terra-formed. Terra-formation is Intelligent Design. No way that's going to happen, not now. Terra-formation as a concept is pretty far from the teachings of main stream Christianity about creation. But it is still Intelligent Design. Accepting Intelligent Design in any form is akin to declaring there is a God. They just won't do it.
(I just took a break to clean my keyboard. It was so dirty, the ENTER key was starting to stick down.)
Now that we have mapped the human genome, people quote stat about the % of difference between the genome of 2 species. The problem with this is something called Junk. The vast majority (98%) of the humane Genome is called JUNK. The statement is that that portion of the Genome does nothing. The explanation is that if this genome came into being from evolutionary forces, you would expect a lot of randomness within the order.
I don't like that they call it junk. It is the scientific equivalent of saying "Pay no attention to the man behind the curtain". That portion of our DNA does nothing IN SO FAR AS WE KNOW NOW.
So when people compare genomes between species, are they only comparing the 2 %, or are they comparing all of the genome. If you are comparing it for the purpose of understanding evolution, you have to compare all of it, Junk and all. They don't tell you what they are comparing. it makes me uneasy. There has always been scientific mockery - PiltDown Man, The Biogenic Law, Java Man. Which voices are trustworthy.
There is a concept called the Molecular Clock. This is how it works.
DNA is a double helix. Each half of the DNA are negative reflections of each other. The 4 sugars A, T, G and C can only combine in fixed ways. For DNA to reproduce, it must split in half. We have duplicated this process in many labs, and we have machines now that automate this for scientific application - one of the main tools of biotech. If we put a sample of DNA in a primer soup of the 4 sugars, and heat the mixture up to a specific temperature (its not real high - can't remember), the halfs of the DNAwill come apart like a zipper. The horizontal bonds between sugars is weaker than the vertical bonds of the sugars. So it comes completely apart into 2 long strands. After heating the mix for a specific period, the mixture is cooled down. Again, not very cool, the range of temperatures used is not large. as it cools down, each DNA half begins to build back it's negative reflection using the free molecules of sugar in the primer soup. They have to keep it at that temperature for a specific time to give the DNA halfs enough time to completely create it's negative reflection and have a complete double helix again - but now you have 2 of them. Do this over and over again, and the DNA really starts to accumulate.
But its not perfect. Sometimes the negative reflection isn't completed, so in the next split, you are also duplicating partial DNA strands. Or perhaps the double helix does rezip back up completely, but has straggling ends of the DNA halfs that don't match up horizontally, but continue to attach primal sugars to extend the strand vertically.
This happens in real life, too. It is called a mutation. The Molecular clock is a statistical model. It postulates that since the DNA is so long, it will create errors at a somewhat constant rate. We can assume it is happening, we just don't know where it is happening.
So, knowing the period of the Molecular clock (which we actually don't know - it's relative to itself - so needs to be calibrated with other evidence - like dating fossil evidence - which is a huge assumption. I am not questioning the dating methods because there are many dating techniques - not just carbon 14. I am questioning the assumption that the fossils chosen for the calibration are in any way related. They are fossils - meaning no organic matter. There is no proof that they are of the same Genus - just the relative shape of the rock)
The nearest living genetic neighbor to humans is Chimpanzees (IN SO FAR AS WE KNOW) So the estimate that counting the differences between the Genomes can be a basis for determining how long ago the 2 Species had a common ancestor. But what are they comparing/counting - the 2% or the 100%. If the 2%, then they could be off my 2 orders of magnitude - huge margin of error.
But they estimate that the common ancestor was from 6 million years ago. Except they don't mention that this is the earliest that this common ancestor could have existed. It could have been earlier - much earlier. The bigger the number of differences, the bigger the "much earlier" can be.
So how long before we start mapping a genome for many species. I heard that one company was mapping the genome of the white laboratory mouse. And once we have the maps, how long before we can start comparing them using the molecular clock to guestimate the earliest time period to reach a common ancestor.
When we do that, will those numbers match up to the entirity of the fossil record. The data will be skewed in favor of the fossil record because the molecular clock is calibrated using the fossil record. But even with that, will there be contradictions - a puzzle that cannot be put together.
People are getting creative. There are other dating methods not based on the concept of atomic half-life. If we calibrate using only those new methods, will something completely different result
when comparing the genomes of all living mammals.
and, as I have said before, the fossil record is really inadequate to make any connections. We have known what we are looking for, for 60 years, and haven't found that much of it. We have only identified 5 fossils of Genus Homo, and it only goes back 3 million years. That's a 3 million year gap to make the 6 million years to find the common ancestor of our nearest living genetic neighbor.
There are approximately 10,000 invertebrate species on earth IN SO FAR AS WE KNOW NOW. Invertebrate means having a spine - so there can be fossils. So the MINIMUM number of fossils we have to find to connect all living species of invertibrates in a genetically linked network is 10,000 (assuming a binary split for each step backwards in the evolutionary link network).
The number is probably MUCH higher - now that we assume that there are at least 5 links between Homo Sapien to get half way to our first significant evolutionary link.
The network of evolutionary significant invertebrate links could be MUCH MUCH more than 10,000. It could be several billion based on current assumptions.
So how many fossils have we found so far that a majority of Paleontologists accepted as representing a significant evolutionary link. It is hard to find this out. It is buried. No one wants to talk about it. Go ahead - search the WWW. You won't find it.
The best I have come up with is less than 1000. Could be less than 100, depending on how strict you are in your selection criteria. There is a lot of disagreement between experts.
It's a ruse. The fossil evidence does not support the level of conviction I see in the public and the scientific community. There is other evidence that is quite compelling. But the question to answer is if evolution happened HERE - ON EARTH. The only evidence that can be used to determine that is the fossil record.
If they were honest, the would conclude that the earth was terra-formed. Terra-formation is Intelligent Design. No way that's going to happen, not now. Terra-formation as a concept is pretty far from the teachings of main stream Christianity about creation. But it is still Intelligent Design. Accepting Intelligent Design in any form is akin to declaring there is a God. They just won't do it.
Monday, October 3, 2011
REALLY WEIRD DREAM
I usually have creative dreams, but this one was out there!
I was living with my parents in a very old house. I was adult height. The house in the dream was not like any house I ever lived in or have ever seen before. It was a very old house - not ancient and nothing special about it.
My Dad decided it was time to remodel the garage. I took a sledge hammer and broke through one of the side walls of the garage. I was surprised to see that there was a room on the other side of the wall. it was a very skinny room, only 4 feet wide, but was as deep as the garage. The room had no doors, but it did have a window. The room was filled with Junkies, lying all over the place, on scattered scraps of broken down furniture.
In the hole I made in the wall, there were 3 service lines exposed. They looked like PVC pipes. Each had a vibrant color: Yellow, Red and Green. By the colors, I understood them to be gas lines. As I looked closer, they were more like garden hoses than PVC pipe, kind of rubbery. Dad thought there might be a leak. So I went to a corner of the garage where the gas controls were. There were knobs that controlled the gas lines. Each knob was the same color as the gas line. I attempted to turn one of the gas lines off. I turned the knob the wrong way, and the yellow line began to quickly expand, becoming so full it looked like a large balloon.
Dad's yelling at me, I'm asking for help, I finally get it shut off.
I turned my attention to the Junkies. My intention was to throw them out. One of them was a smart mouth scrawny lady who knew what I was thinking and said: We got squatter's rights - and I knew she was right. So I tried to think of a way to make them leave on their own. So I thought - if there was no electricity, it would be cold and dark, and maybe they would leave.
I walked around the house to the back yard, to find the fusebox. My wife, Karen, was there to help me. The cabinet on the fuse box was locked. I managed to break the lock. Looking inside the cabinet, I couldn't figure out how to turn the electricity off.
I was living with my parents in a very old house. I was adult height. The house in the dream was not like any house I ever lived in or have ever seen before. It was a very old house - not ancient and nothing special about it.
My Dad decided it was time to remodel the garage. I took a sledge hammer and broke through one of the side walls of the garage. I was surprised to see that there was a room on the other side of the wall. it was a very skinny room, only 4 feet wide, but was as deep as the garage. The room had no doors, but it did have a window. The room was filled with Junkies, lying all over the place, on scattered scraps of broken down furniture.
In the hole I made in the wall, there were 3 service lines exposed. They looked like PVC pipes. Each had a vibrant color: Yellow, Red and Green. By the colors, I understood them to be gas lines. As I looked closer, they were more like garden hoses than PVC pipe, kind of rubbery. Dad thought there might be a leak. So I went to a corner of the garage where the gas controls were. There were knobs that controlled the gas lines. Each knob was the same color as the gas line. I attempted to turn one of the gas lines off. I turned the knob the wrong way, and the yellow line began to quickly expand, becoming so full it looked like a large balloon.
Dad's yelling at me, I'm asking for help, I finally get it shut off.
I turned my attention to the Junkies. My intention was to throw them out. One of them was a smart mouth scrawny lady who knew what I was thinking and said: We got squatter's rights - and I knew she was right. So I tried to think of a way to make them leave on their own. So I thought - if there was no electricity, it would be cold and dark, and maybe they would leave.
I walked around the house to the back yard, to find the fusebox. My wife, Karen, was there to help me. The cabinet on the fuse box was locked. I managed to break the lock. Looking inside the cabinet, I couldn't figure out how to turn the electricity off.
Sunday, September 4, 2011
Big Toe Woes
OK. It is 2"30 AM on a Saturday night. I woke up at 10Am yesterday, and only had one nap - 45 minutes. I have been crazy bust all day, including 2 shopping trips.
How come I am not sleepy! I missed Church last week, I really want to go today, but time is getting short. I didn't go last week because I was awake until 7 AM
I am getting infections in my toenails again. I have figured out why they keep happening, so I wanted to record it in case I forgot this, or if someone else in my family has the same problem for the same reason.
The reason I am getting infections in my big toes is because I am going barefoot. I used to never go barefoot, until I started to lose feeling in the bottoms of my feet due to neuropathy, and probably also diabetes. Going barefoot used to really hurt, so much so that I rarely took a step without some kind of foot covering.
When I sit down and get really involved in something, like perhaps an exciting movie or computer game, I sit up, with my back arched. I unconsciously lift the heel of one of my feet off the floor. I switch between them during the session, but usually it is the right foot. When I do that, I press the toes of my feet into the floor hard. It is OK on the rest of the toes because the toenails are short. But the toesnails on the big toes are really long. So when I crimp the toe, bending it tightly, the beginning of the toenail is forced deeper into my flesh. since my toes are totally numb now, I can't feel the bacl part of the toenail slicing into the tissue. I usually turn the heel outward a bit, so this also puts pressure on the inside edge of the toenail. This is why the infection is always in the same place. On the rght foot, it is the rear left corner of the big toenail.
I have been fighting it all week, using lots of neosporin and Hydrogen Peroxide. But I have only managed to keep it from getting worse. The solution is to wear a shoe that has a stiff sole and foot casing so that I cannot bend my toes much. Fortunately, I have just the thing. When I was going to the gym regularly (several millenia ago), I bought some shoes to give me traction when I walked in the swimming pool. They are shooes that cooks wear. They look like Dutch wooden shoes. They are made of some kind of firm plastic - feels like rubber. I will wear them as house shoes from now on.
Please, Please let me sleep soon
How come I am not sleepy! I missed Church last week, I really want to go today, but time is getting short. I didn't go last week because I was awake until 7 AM
I am getting infections in my toenails again. I have figured out why they keep happening, so I wanted to record it in case I forgot this, or if someone else in my family has the same problem for the same reason.
The reason I am getting infections in my big toes is because I am going barefoot. I used to never go barefoot, until I started to lose feeling in the bottoms of my feet due to neuropathy, and probably also diabetes. Going barefoot used to really hurt, so much so that I rarely took a step without some kind of foot covering.
When I sit down and get really involved in something, like perhaps an exciting movie or computer game, I sit up, with my back arched. I unconsciously lift the heel of one of my feet off the floor. I switch between them during the session, but usually it is the right foot. When I do that, I press the toes of my feet into the floor hard. It is OK on the rest of the toes because the toenails are short. But the toesnails on the big toes are really long. So when I crimp the toe, bending it tightly, the beginning of the toenail is forced deeper into my flesh. since my toes are totally numb now, I can't feel the bacl part of the toenail slicing into the tissue. I usually turn the heel outward a bit, so this also puts pressure on the inside edge of the toenail. This is why the infection is always in the same place. On the rght foot, it is the rear left corner of the big toenail.
I have been fighting it all week, using lots of neosporin and Hydrogen Peroxide. But I have only managed to keep it from getting worse. The solution is to wear a shoe that has a stiff sole and foot casing so that I cannot bend my toes much. Fortunately, I have just the thing. When I was going to the gym regularly (several millenia ago), I bought some shoes to give me traction when I walked in the swimming pool. They are shooes that cooks wear. They look like Dutch wooden shoes. They are made of some kind of firm plastic - feels like rubber. I will wear them as house shoes from now on.
Please, Please let me sleep soon
Saturday, August 27, 2011
Sleeping on Comforter quilt is better
A few years ago, when we were moving my bedroom furniture, my ultra soft matress folded and tore at the point of the fold. The memory foam oozed out of the tear, making a lump. I used duct tape to flatten the lump. Even on the hottest day of the year, that duct tape is cold to the touch.
Because it is summer, I was sleeping only with a sheet above and below me. When I use the comforter instead of a sheet, i sleep better. It is not like I feel cold at night. But I do notice that the comforter feels softer. Maybe my skin is irritated and the softness is soothing. Could be related to the follicitis.
I have no energy today. I eat, I am awake for a bit, then I want to sleep again. It isn't due to weight loss. I also feel hungry all the time.
I am gaining weight. This corresponds when I started using 2 spoonsfuls of spirulina per glass. I am going to go back to 1 teaspoon per cup
Because it is summer, I was sleeping only with a sheet above and below me. When I use the comforter instead of a sheet, i sleep better. It is not like I feel cold at night. But I do notice that the comforter feels softer. Maybe my skin is irritated and the softness is soothing. Could be related to the follicitis.
I have no energy today. I eat, I am awake for a bit, then I want to sleep again. It isn't due to weight loss. I also feel hungry all the time.
I am gaining weight. This corresponds when I started using 2 spoonsfuls of spirulina per glass. I am going to go back to 1 teaspoon per cup
Thursday, August 25, 2011
Nasal Rinse
I went a long period with not Nasal Rinsing in the last year. It got put on the "Just nother thing I don't have time to view". Except when I didn't do it, I would not get enough oxygen, and I would slowly or fastly fall asleep, fepending on how much junk is in there.
I have been doing it regularly for more than 2 weeks, and can see a difference. I am alert more often.
I stopped nasal rinsing 2 decades ago when one foggy-brained morning I forgot to put the nasal rinse salt in the distilled water. at the time, I described it as squirting acid up my nose, It hurt so bad, it was disabling. I couldn't do anything or think of anything to alleviate the pain. This continued for severeal minutes.
I did not figure out that it was the absent of salt in the nasal rinse that caused the pain for 15 years. That is when I decided to do Nasal rinses again. I forgot the salt today. Since I knew what it was, it did not seem too hurt so bad. It was not disabling. I figured out immediately that the thing to do was quickly add salt to the rinse container, and re-fill to the top with distilled water. One squirt took away 90% of the pain. Next squirt, pain was gone.
I have been doing it regularly for more than 2 weeks, and can see a difference. I am alert more often.
I stopped nasal rinsing 2 decades ago when one foggy-brained morning I forgot to put the nasal rinse salt in the distilled water. at the time, I described it as squirting acid up my nose, It hurt so bad, it was disabling. I couldn't do anything or think of anything to alleviate the pain. This continued for severeal minutes.
I did not figure out that it was the absent of salt in the nasal rinse that caused the pain for 15 years. That is when I decided to do Nasal rinses again. I forgot the salt today. Since I knew what it was, it did not seem too hurt so bad. It was not disabling. I figured out immediately that the thing to do was quickly add salt to the rinse container, and re-fill to the top with distilled water. One squirt took away 90% of the pain. Next squirt, pain was gone.
Wednesday, August 24, 2011
Spirulina is working
The Spirulina seems to be working. I can control the dose because its powder. I have been taking 1 teaspoon in 8 fl oz water multiple times a day. I do not count them. The idea is to take enough Spirulina that you never feel hungry.
I have 4 32 oz containers that I fill with filtered water. One is in the bathroom for when I take meds. The other 3 are at my workstation in the bedroom. I refill all 3 at least once a day. That's an average of 144 oz water a day, or 18 glasses of water. I seem to be urinating all the time.
When I was taking Spirulina before in tabular form, my feces was dark green, just like the pills. I was not taking even half the dosage of Spirulina daily that I am now. Which means that form of Spirulina just passed through me, I wasn't able to assimilate much.
The color of my feces is normal. I am still eating regular food so that my digestive system does not forget how to assimilate food. Mostly I eat Sushi-grade meats and red grapefruit. The red grapefruit seems to taste better than it ever has before. I also drink Aloe Vera juice as a treat.
I still get cravings and break discipline about every 3 days. I am able to keep myself from binging. I can keep it to just a box of cookies, and then I am back in control.
I am going to increase the dose to 2 teaspoons Spirulina a glassful.
The Spirulina powder makes a paste when it gets wet. It has some adhesive properties. I use plastic cups to drink it, plastic eating-ware to stir it, and a straw to drink it. it coats the inside of the plastic cup, I stir is with a plastic knife. i use the straw so that it does not turn my lips and teeth green. I use the knife to scrap the inside of the cup to get as much as I can. Damn stuff is expensive, it still turn my tongue the color of grass, and my spit, too.
I have found a source online which is 10% of the price I pay now. It will be the main component of my diet and food storage.
I get a little more energy every day. Weight loss has started again. I am getting good ideas faster. That was the first improvement I noticed. The rate of getting new ideas is increasing. I wonder how far I can push it.
I have 4 32 oz containers that I fill with filtered water. One is in the bathroom for when I take meds. The other 3 are at my workstation in the bedroom. I refill all 3 at least once a day. That's an average of 144 oz water a day, or 18 glasses of water. I seem to be urinating all the time.
When I was taking Spirulina before in tabular form, my feces was dark green, just like the pills. I was not taking even half the dosage of Spirulina daily that I am now. Which means that form of Spirulina just passed through me, I wasn't able to assimilate much.
The color of my feces is normal. I am still eating regular food so that my digestive system does not forget how to assimilate food. Mostly I eat Sushi-grade meats and red grapefruit. The red grapefruit seems to taste better than it ever has before. I also drink Aloe Vera juice as a treat.
I still get cravings and break discipline about every 3 days. I am able to keep myself from binging. I can keep it to just a box of cookies, and then I am back in control.
I am going to increase the dose to 2 teaspoons Spirulina a glassful.
The Spirulina powder makes a paste when it gets wet. It has some adhesive properties. I use plastic cups to drink it, plastic eating-ware to stir it, and a straw to drink it. it coats the inside of the plastic cup, I stir is with a plastic knife. i use the straw so that it does not turn my lips and teeth green. I use the knife to scrap the inside of the cup to get as much as I can. Damn stuff is expensive, it still turn my tongue the color of grass, and my spit, too.
I have found a source online which is 10% of the price I pay now. It will be the main component of my diet and food storage.
I get a little more energy every day. Weight loss has started again. I am getting good ideas faster. That was the first improvement I noticed. The rate of getting new ideas is increasing. I wonder how far I can push it.
Saturday, August 20, 2011
Progress?
Ok. I finally fell asleep at 6AM, woke up at Noon. Did Chores until 7:45PM Went shopping - 3 stores - thought it would take a long time - but only took an hour. That means I am walking faster. One of the stores was on the far side of a neighboring city (Plano).
I forgot to turn on my spinal stimulator when i woke up. So I only was relying on pain meds for 9 hours. The Doctor told me yesterday that I must exercise. So at one of the stores, I used a hand basket, and carried the 2 bags of groceries - one in each hand - to the car. I bagged the groceries, so I made sure they were almost the same weight. Total weight was 20 LBS, which is the max the MD allows me to carry. I was feeling a little weak in the lower back by the time I got to the 3rd store.
I relied on the cart to hold me up. When I got home, it was hard to get out of the car. I stood up, and it was hard to make my legs move. There was little pain, but it was like my legs were ignoring me. So I did what I always do - I talked to them out loud and said: OK, Legs, Move! and then they took me to the back of the car. I filled my fold-a-cart with the groceries. I had to push the cart with my left hand hand. It hurt too much to push the cart with both hands. I was slightly bent over, both knees were bent, mt left shoulder was lower than my right, and my back was really arched.
It was during the walk from the car to the apartment that I realized that my spinal stimulator was not on. I wondered if it was broken and had stopped working.
I got in the house and unloaded groceries. Then I got the remote control and checked out the spinal stimulator. sure enough, it was turned off, so I must have forgotten to turn it on. As soon as I turned it on, I was able to stand up straight. A modern day miracle!
I forgot to turn on my spinal stimulator when i woke up. So I only was relying on pain meds for 9 hours. The Doctor told me yesterday that I must exercise. So at one of the stores, I used a hand basket, and carried the 2 bags of groceries - one in each hand - to the car. I bagged the groceries, so I made sure they were almost the same weight. Total weight was 20 LBS, which is the max the MD allows me to carry. I was feeling a little weak in the lower back by the time I got to the 3rd store.
I relied on the cart to hold me up. When I got home, it was hard to get out of the car. I stood up, and it was hard to make my legs move. There was little pain, but it was like my legs were ignoring me. So I did what I always do - I talked to them out loud and said: OK, Legs, Move! and then they took me to the back of the car. I filled my fold-a-cart with the groceries. I had to push the cart with my left hand hand. It hurt too much to push the cart with both hands. I was slightly bent over, both knees were bent, mt left shoulder was lower than my right, and my back was really arched.
It was during the walk from the car to the apartment that I realized that my spinal stimulator was not on. I wondered if it was broken and had stopped working.
I got in the house and unloaded groceries. Then I got the remote control and checked out the spinal stimulator. sure enough, it was turned off, so I must have forgotten to turn it on. As soon as I turned it on, I was able to stand up straight. A modern day miracle!
Sunday, August 7, 2011
fun fun fun
Emily has come to stay with me for a bit while on route to California to hopefully get a career job in her chosen field. I get to keep Shou Shou until she gets established. Shou Shou and I are having fun fun fun. I laugh every day, giggle several times a day.
Monday, July 25, 2011
Third World Economy
I saw an article in a tech mag about a grad student making a prototype device that would use solar energy to convert sand into glass, and would form the glass according to 3D model layer by layer, like 3D printers do now with plastic. I saw the image of a bowl he created. It was white in color, with very rough edges.
I didn't realize the importance of this until today. The vast majority of US oil wells ran dry sometime ago. The hypothesis is that oil rich countries in the Middle East are looking into nuclear power now - while they have the money to afford it. If the oil runs out in these countries, they will not have much resource to work with. Their economy will fail.
So being able to use the sun and sand - something these countries have plenty of - as a basis for a whole set of industries, is great. It lessens their risk, and reduces the chances for war.
I was just sleeping,and I had a dream about a factory in Ghana.
In Ghana, there are too many untrained, uneducated people. I used to think one could come and set up a factory for them, train them, watch over them a bit, then pull out, and it would continue.
I thought about setting up Spirulina factories to make food, but without strict pharmaceutical controls and processes, the risk of producing a fatal toxin is too high. In the US, 6 people died in 1978 from Spirulina with toxins in it.
In the dream, the factory was an assembly plant. Since people don't have IDs, or may be using IDs of other people, you can't hire a worker as an employee and just train hm once. Plus, there are too many people in need, and contention would arise because others want jobs.
So I envisioned a horseshoe shaped factory. Product assembly would start and one end of the horseshoe and continue to the other end of the horseshoe. There would be loading docks at either end of the horseshoe on the flat edges - input and output.
The factory would be broken up into several sections. Each section would have a temp worker waiting room. Anyone can stand can come in. Fingerprint ID could be used, but that would also be tempting to steal and resale. Each person would be trained, 1 on 1, before entering the factory floor. hey would also be required to sign a waiver that the company is not liable if they get hurt. They would work for one hour. at the end of the hour, all machines stop (if any), and every one is escorted out, and be paid on their way (a good incentive to leave and not hide).
People who have been trained several times and show they are sharp - that they remember how to do this, would be hired as trainers. The original trainers would be from the US, like recruits for Peace Corps.
Having a work period of just one hour gives money to 8 times more people. People who want more money can go get back in line. If there is a way to track those who get back in line, then perhaps their could be a way to utilize them more efficiently, since they are ambitious.
The amount of pay should just be a single bill of Ghana Currency - so there is no slow down because workers want to count their money before final exit from factory.
If the lines in certain sections of the factory are shorter than the other sections (most likely because the work is harder), then the amount of pay for that section is increased.
I didn't realize the importance of this until today. The vast majority of US oil wells ran dry sometime ago. The hypothesis is that oil rich countries in the Middle East are looking into nuclear power now - while they have the money to afford it. If the oil runs out in these countries, they will not have much resource to work with. Their economy will fail.
So being able to use the sun and sand - something these countries have plenty of - as a basis for a whole set of industries, is great. It lessens their risk, and reduces the chances for war.
I was just sleeping,and I had a dream about a factory in Ghana.
In Ghana, there are too many untrained, uneducated people. I used to think one could come and set up a factory for them, train them, watch over them a bit, then pull out, and it would continue.
I thought about setting up Spirulina factories to make food, but without strict pharmaceutical controls and processes, the risk of producing a fatal toxin is too high. In the US, 6 people died in 1978 from Spirulina with toxins in it.
In the dream, the factory was an assembly plant. Since people don't have IDs, or may be using IDs of other people, you can't hire a worker as an employee and just train hm once. Plus, there are too many people in need, and contention would arise because others want jobs.
So I envisioned a horseshoe shaped factory. Product assembly would start and one end of the horseshoe and continue to the other end of the horseshoe. There would be loading docks at either end of the horseshoe on the flat edges - input and output.
The factory would be broken up into several sections. Each section would have a temp worker waiting room. Anyone can stand can come in. Fingerprint ID could be used, but that would also be tempting to steal and resale. Each person would be trained, 1 on 1, before entering the factory floor. hey would also be required to sign a waiver that the company is not liable if they get hurt. They would work for one hour. at the end of the hour, all machines stop (if any), and every one is escorted out, and be paid on their way (a good incentive to leave and not hide).
People who have been trained several times and show they are sharp - that they remember how to do this, would be hired as trainers. The original trainers would be from the US, like recruits for Peace Corps.
Having a work period of just one hour gives money to 8 times more people. People who want more money can go get back in line. If there is a way to track those who get back in line, then perhaps their could be a way to utilize them more efficiently, since they are ambitious.
The amount of pay should just be a single bill of Ghana Currency - so there is no slow down because workers want to count their money before final exit from factory.
If the lines in certain sections of the factory are shorter than the other sections (most likely because the work is harder), then the amount of pay for that section is increased.
Sunday, July 10, 2011
Lost entire Weekend
I lost my entire weekend to sleep disorder. Friday night I was not able to sleep, I was awake 30 hours. The latter part of those hours I could not drive or function well. I decided to wait until Sunday to do chores. Sunday was looking good. I woke up Early AM, did not do chores but planned on doing them after Church. I did shower and shave.I played games for a few hours, then did a security check on my computer. I decided to sleep a little more. I made some Oatmeal Tea, but added too much honey. my eyes dialated, and eventually I was fallling asleep in my chair. I barely made it to bed. I slept 14 hours. Damn sugar! It is now 9PM. I am stumbling around, and I can't see well. I will wait 3 hours and take morning meds. Then I will work,in the hopes that I finish early in the day, so I can do shopping.
Thursday, July 7, 2011
I am feeling better
I have been having bad bouts of insomnia ever since I had some medical testing done on Friday July First. (Don't worry, nothing is wrong.) I was far enough away from home that I had to eat food from a deli. Then there was homemade food at the church 4th of July picnic. Which meant that I had several 1 hour naps of no deep sleep for 6 days, and never slept more than 4 hours once every one or two days in which I had dreams, indicating REM sleep.
I was pretty weak today, and had the runs pretty bad, so I took a day off. I finally slept 7 hours, but unfortunately it was in the middle of the day. I feel pretty good.
I have decided to eat Sushi grade meats again. My food budget had gotten so low, that now I can absorb the extra cost. I started this today, and my thinking feels really clear.
I was pretty weak today, and had the runs pretty bad, so I took a day off. I finally slept 7 hours, but unfortunately it was in the middle of the day. I feel pretty good.
I have decided to eat Sushi grade meats again. My food budget had gotten so low, that now I can absorb the extra cost. I started this today, and my thinking feels really clear.
Wednesday, July 6, 2011
Sunday, July 3, 2011
Neuro-Cognitive Test
I sent an email to my Doctor 2 months ago complaining that my state of health that I was not able to do my job because of memory and focus dysfunction. He emailed em back and said he would recommend a Neuro-cognitive test just to make sure nothing was physically wrong with my brain. He recommended this because of my age, and the amount of stress I have been through in the last 5 years.
I took the test on Friday, the first of July, 2011. It was many different tests, and took all day. I did some of the tests so quickly, I was able to leave at 3 PM, 2 hours earlier than was expected/planned for.
I had to be there at 8 AM. I awoke at 5:30 AM to be sure I was able to get there on time. I had only had 6 hours of sleep, but it was a deep sleep. I was quite lethargic when I awoke, and had to use Blue Light therapy for over an hour to wake up enough to have reflexes fast enough and attention to detail in order to drive a car. I packed a lunch in a thermal bag and loaded it with several mini-bottles of Fuji water I had purchased the night before.
The test were so varied, I won't describe them all here. It wasn't just different forms of memory recall. I had to make decisions or judgements based on little information. I was tested for muscle strength in my grip (50 LBS - really surprised me - I am getting stronger). I was tested for speed and accuracy, from pusing a button repeatedly in 1 minute, to scanning a page of characters to cross out a specific one, to listening to a series of beeps to be able to compare them for having the same rhythm.
I will get a copy of the full report soon. I was given an initial evaluation at the end of the testing. He said my mind was functioning well in all areas tested. He said that an objective interpretation was needed because I needed to be compared against other people with similar racial profile, age, and profession. Even when compared with a constrained group, my performance was in the top percentile.
I took the test on Friday, the first of July, 2011. It was many different tests, and took all day. I did some of the tests so quickly, I was able to leave at 3 PM, 2 hours earlier than was expected/planned for.
I had to be there at 8 AM. I awoke at 5:30 AM to be sure I was able to get there on time. I had only had 6 hours of sleep, but it was a deep sleep. I was quite lethargic when I awoke, and had to use Blue Light therapy for over an hour to wake up enough to have reflexes fast enough and attention to detail in order to drive a car. I packed a lunch in a thermal bag and loaded it with several mini-bottles of Fuji water I had purchased the night before.
The test were so varied, I won't describe them all here. It wasn't just different forms of memory recall. I had to make decisions or judgements based on little information. I was tested for muscle strength in my grip (50 LBS - really surprised me - I am getting stronger). I was tested for speed and accuracy, from pusing a button repeatedly in 1 minute, to scanning a page of characters to cross out a specific one, to listening to a series of beeps to be able to compare them for having the same rhythm.
I will get a copy of the full report soon. I was given an initial evaluation at the end of the testing. He said my mind was functioning well in all areas tested. He said that an objective interpretation was needed because I needed to be compared against other people with similar racial profile, age, and profession. Even when compared with a constrained group, my performance was in the top percentile.
Wednesday, June 29, 2011
Damn Bathroom Scale
I found out today that if I lean from side to side on the bathroom scale, the number changes.
If I lean to the right, the weight will increase a few pounds, but not more, no matte how much more I lean to the right.
If I lean to the left, I can get it to drop as much as 25 LBS,. If I lean more, the computer inside errors out, showing the text: Err
A spread of 27 pounds! Dang, i can't trust the numbers it provides much. I can assume I always stand with the same position - muscular memory and all that.
But What I will do is lean all the way to the left, and see what was the last number shown before the Error out. I won't say that is my weight, but it can be used as a relative measure of weight loss over time.
Once you get over 250 LBS, bathroom scales just don't work.
If I lean to the right, the weight will increase a few pounds, but not more, no matte how much more I lean to the right.
If I lean to the left, I can get it to drop as much as 25 LBS,. If I lean more, the computer inside errors out, showing the text: Err
A spread of 27 pounds! Dang, i can't trust the numbers it provides much. I can assume I always stand with the same position - muscular memory and all that.
But What I will do is lean all the way to the left, and see what was the last number shown before the Error out. I won't say that is my weight, but it can be used as a relative measure of weight loss over time.
Once you get over 250 LBS, bathroom scales just don't work.
Spnal Stimulator & Sleep Pattern
When I first got the spinal stimulator, there was no way I could fall asleep with it turned on. They Man from Boston Scientific recommended that I do so.
After a few months, I found myself turning it off late in the day because I felt like it was iritatting or frying my nerves. There would be a ghost aftereffect, where it still felt like it was turned on after I turned it off. It would not be as strong, but definitely felt like it was on. Then it would stop in about an hour - I guess, dissapating the bundled energy. I suspect not all the energy is going into the spine and up the spinal column. It has to go somewhere...
After several months, I could tolerate the stimulation better. I would use the stimulator all day, but turn it off at bed time. As time went by, I would sometimes forget to turn it off before I went to bed. When I sleep with the stimulator on, I sleep for much shorter periods, between 5 and 7 hours. I am not waking up because I can feel the stimulator. I am waking up because I feel like waking up. I may not be refreshed, but I feel like I can definitlely wake up.
I have purposely slept with the stimulator on this week. It has been 3 days. The first 2 days I was exhausted because I did too much during the day, and I slept 14, and 12 hours. Yesterday was a bitch. It was one of those computer programming problem days where your patience is stretched to its limit and far beyond. It just won't give me what I want, no matter how I ask it. I had to stop 3 times during the day to take a calm down break. And then I slept from 1:30 AM to 6:30 AM. Go figure?
After a few months, I found myself turning it off late in the day because I felt like it was iritatting or frying my nerves. There would be a ghost aftereffect, where it still felt like it was turned on after I turned it off. It would not be as strong, but definitely felt like it was on. Then it would stop in about an hour - I guess, dissapating the bundled energy. I suspect not all the energy is going into the spine and up the spinal column. It has to go somewhere...
After several months, I could tolerate the stimulation better. I would use the stimulator all day, but turn it off at bed time. As time went by, I would sometimes forget to turn it off before I went to bed. When I sleep with the stimulator on, I sleep for much shorter periods, between 5 and 7 hours. I am not waking up because I can feel the stimulator. I am waking up because I feel like waking up. I may not be refreshed, but I feel like I can definitlely wake up.
I have purposely slept with the stimulator on this week. It has been 3 days. The first 2 days I was exhausted because I did too much during the day, and I slept 14, and 12 hours. Yesterday was a bitch. It was one of those computer programming problem days where your patience is stretched to its limit and far beyond. It just won't give me what I want, no matter how I ask it. I had to stop 3 times during the day to take a calm down break. And then I slept from 1:30 AM to 6:30 AM. Go figure?
Tuesday, June 21, 2011
Just can't get started
I just can't wake up today. I don't know what it is. I have had plenty of nutrients, Blue Light Therapy, and naps during the day. But my movement is so slow, I feel like I am in a vat of syrup. I am constantly making typos. My thoughts are slow. I have been on the edge of lucidity all day. It is almost 8PM, and I feel like I could go to sleep and sleep all night right now.
I re-read the journal entry I made last night. It triggered a thought I have been wanting to record for a long time which may explain why I am making so many typos.
We have diagnosed neuropathy in two places in my body: the ankles and the spine. There was testing done that allowed us to know there is no neuropathy in the knees and hips, even before my hips were replaced.
I believe I am getting neuropathy in the wrists. I have been noticing decreased sensitivity in the tip of index finger on both hands, getting gradually worse over the last year. I am noticing it in the tips of all the fingers now except the little fingers.
another interesting tidbit related to this is touch screens. Touch screens often do not sense my index finger. I have to switch to a different finger for it to sense the selection. Touch screens are triggered by the current that flows over the surface of the skin. Its 300 Megahertz, the same frequency as the energy passing through our brains and nervous system. This energy is one of the things measured during a lie detector test. I never thought about this, but the energy flowing around the skin probably comes from the nerve endings closest to the surface of the skin. If a patch of nerve endings is having transmission problems due to wearing away of nerve tissue prior to the endpoint, then there would be a hole or dead space in the electrical field
I re-read the journal entry I made last night. It triggered a thought I have been wanting to record for a long time which may explain why I am making so many typos.
We have diagnosed neuropathy in two places in my body: the ankles and the spine. There was testing done that allowed us to know there is no neuropathy in the knees and hips, even before my hips were replaced.
I believe I am getting neuropathy in the wrists. I have been noticing decreased sensitivity in the tip of index finger on both hands, getting gradually worse over the last year. I am noticing it in the tips of all the fingers now except the little fingers.
another interesting tidbit related to this is touch screens. Touch screens often do not sense my index finger. I have to switch to a different finger for it to sense the selection. Touch screens are triggered by the current that flows over the surface of the skin. Its 300 Megahertz, the same frequency as the energy passing through our brains and nervous system. This energy is one of the things measured during a lie detector test. I never thought about this, but the energy flowing around the skin probably comes from the nerve endings closest to the surface of the skin. If a patch of nerve endings is having transmission problems due to wearing away of nerve tissue prior to the endpoint, then there would be a hole or dead space in the electrical field
It's 5:50 AM
I awoke at 5:50 AM. My body is still asleep, responds slowly. Why did I wake up? I am a little thirsty, not hungry,don' have to go to bathroom. There is no physical need strong enough to have awoken me.
I can tell that I have been dreaming a lot more now.
Then I hear, far away in the distance, thunder. It is barely audible. as I get up, find my glasses, take seroquel and 5 grams of spirulina, I can hear the thunder coming closer. Then finally a slight rain which didn't last long, moved over my apaprtment, and continued on its way.
My guess - the increase of static electricity in the air woke my up. I guess it doesn't take much.
Now that the storm is passing, we'll see if there are any changes. I still here thunder, quietly, but not distant. Right now, there was one close, but no rain drops.
I wanted to record something new I learned about the CPAP face mask. I did record earlier how putting bandaids on my face help not have air leaks. I tried some thing new with the bandaids, the the mask worked even better, I was putting a small bandaid of the the bridge of my nose, just below the eye level, then 2 on each side of the nose in the recessed wrinkle line. I added one more bandaid, connecting to the bandaid from the bridge of the nose, going straight up. This helps with air leaking into the eyes. Also, the overall effect is that I do not have to pull the mask straps so tight so their are no leaks.
Before I did this change, sometimes I had to pull it so tight that it would border on being painful. Now I can back off from that allot.
I can hear constant raindrops from a light rain. The thunder is far in the distance. I saw no flashes of lightning sneak in through the gaps on the outer edge of the dark curtains we use in my room.
I feel weary and groggy, perhaps enough to fall asleep. I am going to make some oatmeal tea to see if tat helps.
It is annoying how many typing errors and poor word choices I am making as I write this. A new thing has started to to show up where I forget to hit a key or don't hit it hard enough to be sensed by the device drivers plugged-in to the Computer OS. It is becoming more and mroe common to see as much as 3 letters missing from the middle of the word. Like "thinking" would appear as thin to thing. I am guessing that this is some kind of spelling auto-correction tkaing place that I don't notice because I am looking at the keyboard. I know I typed those keys - i am certain.
Is I typed the last word "certain" in the paragraph above, i actually touched the area in the groove in between the rows of keys. I got the 'c' but the "er" was not on screen/
I hear nothing outside except barely audible gugrgling of the drainage water,
And now I can barely stay awake,
I can tell that I have been dreaming a lot more now.
Then I hear, far away in the distance, thunder. It is barely audible. as I get up, find my glasses, take seroquel and 5 grams of spirulina, I can hear the thunder coming closer. Then finally a slight rain which didn't last long, moved over my apaprtment, and continued on its way.
My guess - the increase of static electricity in the air woke my up. I guess it doesn't take much.
Now that the storm is passing, we'll see if there are any changes. I still here thunder, quietly, but not distant. Right now, there was one close, but no rain drops.
I wanted to record something new I learned about the CPAP face mask. I did record earlier how putting bandaids on my face help not have air leaks. I tried some thing new with the bandaids, the the mask worked even better, I was putting a small bandaid of the the bridge of my nose, just below the eye level, then 2 on each side of the nose in the recessed wrinkle line. I added one more bandaid, connecting to the bandaid from the bridge of the nose, going straight up. This helps with air leaking into the eyes. Also, the overall effect is that I do not have to pull the mask straps so tight so their are no leaks.
Before I did this change, sometimes I had to pull it so tight that it would border on being painful. Now I can back off from that allot.
I can hear constant raindrops from a light rain. The thunder is far in the distance. I saw no flashes of lightning sneak in through the gaps on the outer edge of the dark curtains we use in my room.
I feel weary and groggy, perhaps enough to fall asleep. I am going to make some oatmeal tea to see if tat helps.
It is annoying how many typing errors and poor word choices I am making as I write this. A new thing has started to to show up where I forget to hit a key or don't hit it hard enough to be sensed by the device drivers plugged-in to the Computer OS. It is becoming more and mroe common to see as much as 3 letters missing from the middle of the word. Like "thinking" would appear as thin to thing. I am guessing that this is some kind of spelling auto-correction tkaing place that I don't notice because I am looking at the keyboard. I know I typed those keys - i am certain.
Is I typed the last word "certain" in the paragraph above, i actually touched the area in the groove in between the rows of keys. I got the 'c' but the "er" was not on screen/
I hear nothing outside except barely audible gugrgling of the drainage water,
And now I can barely stay awake,
Monday, June 20, 2011
I am getting more energy
This is day 5 of taking large amounts of Spirulina daily (between 20 and 30 grams).
Energy is up. Focus is up. I am working faster. I RODE MY TRIKE today.
It got not blazingly hot at 8PM, and it was still light enough outside. I rode for about 15 minutes - really enjoyed it,
As time goes by, I want to increase it until I know the amount which is too much and it causes weight gain. Then i will back off from there. It is working about the cravings. If I keep taking enough during the day, I don't feel hungry. So I have to remember to take them, otherwise intead of feeling hungry, I start to feel tired and confused. When I keep up the intake, then there are no cravings.
My friend Floyd was telling me that for him it is the smell of food that is so hard to resist. When i iold him I had no sense of smell, it was so funny, He had this look on his face like: You lucky bastard!
Floyd told me of a way to order Sirulina online, it is called "nuts online". Are they talking about the food or the people that work there? but they do sell quality Spirulna at a tenth of the price you get it in Health Food Stores, like Whole Foods. but you have to buy 50 LBS of powder ot once, but for only 5 dollars. The savings is not having the factories pit it in jars for you and date stamp them
I made more friends today in W101. Sarah Icecaster and Robert BearHunter.
I am seriously considering getting an iPad, It is just the right size for me. I haven't been taking my scriptures to Church because the only ones I can read easily are huge. I struggle borrowing others scriptures, because the font is so small, but I have read them so many times I can guess the words. I might even rwrite some apps for ir
Energy is up. Focus is up. I am working faster. I RODE MY TRIKE today.
It got not blazingly hot at 8PM, and it was still light enough outside. I rode for about 15 minutes - really enjoyed it,
As time goes by, I want to increase it until I know the amount which is too much and it causes weight gain. Then i will back off from there. It is working about the cravings. If I keep taking enough during the day, I don't feel hungry. So I have to remember to take them, otherwise intead of feeling hungry, I start to feel tired and confused. When I keep up the intake, then there are no cravings.
My friend Floyd was telling me that for him it is the smell of food that is so hard to resist. When i iold him I had no sense of smell, it was so funny, He had this look on his face like: You lucky bastard!
Floyd told me of a way to order Sirulina online, it is called "nuts online". Are they talking about the food or the people that work there? but they do sell quality Spirulna at a tenth of the price you get it in Health Food Stores, like Whole Foods. but you have to buy 50 LBS of powder ot once, but for only 5 dollars. The savings is not having the factories pit it in jars for you and date stamp them
I made more friends today in W101. Sarah Icecaster and Robert BearHunter.
I am seriously considering getting an iPad, It is just the right size for me. I haven't been taking my scriptures to Church because the only ones I can read easily are huge. I struggle borrowing others scriptures, because the font is so small, but I have read them so many times I can guess the words. I might even rwrite some apps for ir
Sunday, June 19, 2011
Back on Spirulina again
I was finding myself feeling hungry all the time again, which means not enough Spirulina. I changed my diet back to normal food months ago due to something which I no longer remember.
Noe I take as much Spirulina as I want, no limits. I do still some juice and maybe some tuna each day. I want to see what the amount of Spirulina I eat that would cause weight gain, so that I know that upper limit. I stopped using it before because I would have strong cravings for sugar. Floyd and the WWW agree that in that case, I should have taken more Spirulina until the craving left.
One thing I do know since I made this change 3 days ago. I have more energy, I think more clearly, and I fall asleep more easily.
I decided to wear the Diddle Tie Katie gave me when she was an exchange student in Germany. I think that would be appropriate for Father's Day, and I want to see if my German friend recognizes the character.
Noe I take as much Spirulina as I want, no limits. I do still some juice and maybe some tuna each day. I want to see what the amount of Spirulina I eat that would cause weight gain, so that I know that upper limit. I stopped using it before because I would have strong cravings for sugar. Floyd and the WWW agree that in that case, I should have taken more Spirulina until the craving left.
One thing I do know since I made this change 3 days ago. I have more energy, I think more clearly, and I fall asleep more easily.
I decided to wear the Diddle Tie Katie gave me when she was an exchange student in Germany. I think that would be appropriate for Father's Day, and I want to see if my German friend recognizes the character.
Sunday, June 12, 2011
Fessing Up
As terrible as this sounds, I have to admit that I am a human supremist.
All life is sacred, but some life is more sacred than others - see Animal Farm
All life is sacred, but some life is more sacred than others - see Animal Farm
Thursday, June 9, 2011
Dang it
I haven't taken morning meds for 2 days now. I feel OK, but why don't I remember to do this. I did a lot of things today before working. I ordered meds online and on the phone, other stuff. Why did I forget that part?
Sleep - things to record
1. Put the mask on correctly. It is not enough to pull the straps on the back off the head downward. You need to check to make sure the upper strap passes just over the ear on both sides of the head.
2. The area around the nose and above the mouth are sensitive. I am waking up multiple times to run spots around the nose because of air leaks, moisture, or it just tickles. To mitigate this:
Wear band aids over the bridge of the nose and in the crease on each side of the nose.
I cannot wear a bandaid under the nose because it keeps coming off
Take benedryl at night - with the MD's OK - it is an antihistamine, and I may not be able to take it
3. Take alpazoram at night. I have been doing this for months now, but forgot to do it this week. I took it with morning meds like I did for years previous. The result was that I only slept 3 to 4 hours, then woke up. The wake up might be due to bodily needs, but I am not able to sleep again afterwards.
4. When I wake up at night, take seroquel to help fall back asleep - this has been part of my regimine for a long time.
5. I have noticed for a long time that sweets just before bed help me fall asleep. It causes a sugar increase followed by a sugar low - and I am able to fall asleep during the sugar low. The problem with this is that this is the worst time to eat sweets, and it is easy to get too much sugar. I have found that making what I call "Oat meal tea" will help. I just put 1/4 cup of oatmeal into a large cup with 1 cup or more of water. I boil this in microwave for several minutes. I haven';t determined the number of minutes yet - 5 is too long. I also have to watch how much water. Both os these items cause spill over at boil if I do too much . Then I add honey. I don't need to eat the oatmeal, but usually due. This cannot be rolled oats. it has to be steel cut milled oats - like McCann's Irish oatmeal.
2. The area around the nose and above the mouth are sensitive. I am waking up multiple times to run spots around the nose because of air leaks, moisture, or it just tickles. To mitigate this:
Wear band aids over the bridge of the nose and in the crease on each side of the nose.
I cannot wear a bandaid under the nose because it keeps coming off
Take benedryl at night - with the MD's OK - it is an antihistamine, and I may not be able to take it
3. Take alpazoram at night. I have been doing this for months now, but forgot to do it this week. I took it with morning meds like I did for years previous. The result was that I only slept 3 to 4 hours, then woke up. The wake up might be due to bodily needs, but I am not able to sleep again afterwards.
4. When I wake up at night, take seroquel to help fall back asleep - this has been part of my regimine for a long time.
5. I have noticed for a long time that sweets just before bed help me fall asleep. It causes a sugar increase followed by a sugar low - and I am able to fall asleep during the sugar low. The problem with this is that this is the worst time to eat sweets, and it is easy to get too much sugar. I have found that making what I call "Oat meal tea" will help. I just put 1/4 cup of oatmeal into a large cup with 1 cup or more of water. I boil this in microwave for several minutes. I haven';t determined the number of minutes yet - 5 is too long. I also have to watch how much water. Both os these items cause spill over at boil if I do too much . Then I add honey. I don't need to eat the oatmeal, but usually due. This cannot be rolled oats. it has to be steel cut milled oats - like McCann's Irish oatmeal.
Wednesday, June 8, 2011
New Joke
I made up this joke a few days ago. Then I forgot it. It came back today asking to be recorded. It is too questionable for facebook (even for me), so I'll record it here for those few people who love me enough to read this.
How many porn stars does it take to screw in a prophylactic?
Well, that depends on your subscription fees....
How many porn stars does it take to screw in a prophylactic?
Well, that depends on your subscription fees....
Friday, June 3, 2011
I can be so dumb
I figured out the reason why I could not sleep this week. It was my work laptop. I forgot to reconfigure it so it turned off the blue light. So every hour exposed to the blue light meant 4 hours of not being able to fall asleep. And since I was not sleepy, why not get more work done - so I didn't sleep for a long long time. for me, works better than caffeine.
so now my laptop display is mostly GREEN
so now my laptop display is mostly GREEN
Wednesday, June 1, 2011
Wannabe sleepin
I worked too long today. It's good that I had the energy, but now I am too wound up to sleep. I have been awake for 16 hours now - and not even a hint of sleep.
It has been a good week. At the suggestion of my MD, I have started eating Yogurt. Karen told me a long time ago that Yogurt was lactose free. We tried an experiment buying a frozen yogurt cake. It was a disaster. I got really sick. My thoughts now are that they probably added real milk so that the yogurt would remain solid when frozen. I read labels closely this time, and got just cultured milk. My first taste was soooo goood.
It gave me memories of my childhood. That is a common thing for people who have a sense of smell, but this was only the second time it has happened to me. The first time was eating maple flavored pop-tarts. It reminded me of hanging out with James in his bedroom playing video games or watching movies. Good times!
I got some control over sleep cycle during the week. I was able to attend church. The deciding factor of attending church is "is it safe for me to drive?". I went 6 weeks not being able to attend. This time, I stayed the whole 3 hours, and was wide awake the whole time.
I think the yogurt helped my sleep cycle. The sleep cycle is out of control now because I forgot to take morning meds on Memorial Day.
I have been trying to get a group together in Wizard101 in order to do a very difficult dungeon called "The Waterworks". It is so hard, people lose resolve and keep quitting mid-dungeon. I tried multiple times, and usually found myself alone in the last room of the dungeon. It is impossible to do that alone. So the last time when someone said they wanted to leave, I got mad and berated them. They stayed, and we were able to finish it - just the 2 of us. It is designed require 4 players, so we really had to stretch. But we finally got it - took 5 hours.
It has been a good week. At the suggestion of my MD, I have started eating Yogurt. Karen told me a long time ago that Yogurt was lactose free. We tried an experiment buying a frozen yogurt cake. It was a disaster. I got really sick. My thoughts now are that they probably added real milk so that the yogurt would remain solid when frozen. I read labels closely this time, and got just cultured milk. My first taste was soooo goood.
It gave me memories of my childhood. That is a common thing for people who have a sense of smell, but this was only the second time it has happened to me. The first time was eating maple flavored pop-tarts. It reminded me of hanging out with James in his bedroom playing video games or watching movies. Good times!
I got some control over sleep cycle during the week. I was able to attend church. The deciding factor of attending church is "is it safe for me to drive?". I went 6 weeks not being able to attend. This time, I stayed the whole 3 hours, and was wide awake the whole time.
I think the yogurt helped my sleep cycle. The sleep cycle is out of control now because I forgot to take morning meds on Memorial Day.
I have been trying to get a group together in Wizard101 in order to do a very difficult dungeon called "The Waterworks". It is so hard, people lose resolve and keep quitting mid-dungeon. I tried multiple times, and usually found myself alone in the last room of the dungeon. It is impossible to do that alone. So the last time when someone said they wanted to leave, I got mad and berated them. They stayed, and we were able to finish it - just the 2 of us. It is designed require 4 players, so we really had to stretch. But we finally got it - took 5 hours.
Wednesday, May 25, 2011
FINALLY
I have lived in Texas about 5 years. It took most of those 5 years to get permission to work from home. My supervisor can OK my working at home a few days a week.
It has taken me 6 months to get a laptop powerful enough to do this, and also to get the software installed and configured so that it worked.
I worked from home today. I did not sleep at all last night. So I took short naps during the day. I would set the company "Instant Message" tool status to "Not at my Desk".
The best part was, it was great to be able to work with a clear mind. Mid-day, I got back to the level of performance I had 20 years ago - getting a good idea every 15 minutes. It felt great.
It has taken me 6 months to get a laptop powerful enough to do this, and also to get the software installed and configured so that it worked.
I worked from home today. I did not sleep at all last night. So I took short naps during the day. I would set the company "Instant Message" tool status to "Not at my Desk".
The best part was, it was great to be able to work with a clear mind. Mid-day, I got back to the level of performance I had 20 years ago - getting a good idea every 15 minutes. It felt great.
Another Storm, Another Sleepless night
I tried laying down for 2 hours - nothing happening. My head, neck and arms are really tense. I can play boggle extremely well. Can't find any reference on WWW that correlates electrical storms and sleeplessness. This is the fifth incident that I remember,
Sunday, May 15, 2011
Blogger was down
I have wanted to make several posts, but my blogger has been down for days. So I'll just summarize.
I am slowly losing weight again. If I can get down to 310 LBS then it is real for sure.
I am trying to keep the minimum necessary of sugar in my system,
so I don't trigger a sugar craving.
I think thunderstorms effect my brain electrically, not allowing me to fall asleep. Last 3 night storms - I was up all night.
I really focused on chores this weekend and got much done. It also worked in changing my sleep cycle to normalcy. It is 10:30 PM, I've taken my night-time meds, ans I am begining to feel sleepy.
I am slowly losing weight again. If I can get down to 310 LBS then it is real for sure.
I am trying to keep the minimum necessary of sugar in my system,
so I don't trigger a sugar craving.
I think thunderstorms effect my brain electrically, not allowing me to fall asleep. Last 3 night storms - I was up all night.
I really focused on chores this weekend and got much done. It also worked in changing my sleep cycle to normalcy. It is 10:30 PM, I've taken my night-time meds, ans I am begining to feel sleepy.
Saturday, May 7, 2011
I am sick
I am sick. It has been 6 days. For the last 3, I have been living on chicken broth, beef broth, and tomato based soups. For some reason, tomato soups are tasting much much better than normal. The soups help me feel that there is something solid in my tummy - Progresso brand.
For the last 24 hours, I sleep 4, awake 1, repeat. I feel like I could sleep forever. Friday was the worst, got very depressed and was in so much pain. Today is much better. Mood is in control, outlook is good, and I am beginning to feel rested.
My house is a mess. I am behind in everything. Recycling is scattered all over. Sink filled with dishes. Getting down to the last pairs of underwear and socks. Papers stacked up high on my desk, adn a pile just as large of mail on the kitchen table. and you know what - I don't care.
I'm gonna sleep some more, then maybe watch some more of the Justice League Unlimited cartoons. It is interesting to see how they borrow from other creative sources, even Star Wars, StarGate and H.P. Lovecraft.
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Addendum: I think this week would have gone better had I been taking my meds like I am supposed to! My sleep pattern was so erratic, I got confused about when it was morning, not sure If I should take my morning meds at this particular awakening, or at the next, never knowing if I would remain awake or would be sleepy again in 30 minutes. After the first miss of the meds, my thinking became blurred enough that the thought didn't enter my mind again until last night. I had not taken my morning meds for 5 days. This is the kind of thing they put you back into the hospital for, intended or not. Shit!
For the last 24 hours, I sleep 4, awake 1, repeat. I feel like I could sleep forever. Friday was the worst, got very depressed and was in so much pain. Today is much better. Mood is in control, outlook is good, and I am beginning to feel rested.
My house is a mess. I am behind in everything. Recycling is scattered all over. Sink filled with dishes. Getting down to the last pairs of underwear and socks. Papers stacked up high on my desk, adn a pile just as large of mail on the kitchen table. and you know what - I don't care.
I'm gonna sleep some more, then maybe watch some more of the Justice League Unlimited cartoons. It is interesting to see how they borrow from other creative sources, even Star Wars, StarGate and H.P. Lovecraft.
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Addendum: I think this week would have gone better had I been taking my meds like I am supposed to! My sleep pattern was so erratic, I got confused about when it was morning, not sure If I should take my morning meds at this particular awakening, or at the next, never knowing if I would remain awake or would be sleepy again in 30 minutes. After the first miss of the meds, my thinking became blurred enough that the thought didn't enter my mind again until last night. I had not taken my morning meds for 5 days. This is the kind of thing they put you back into the hospital for, intended or not. Shit!
Monday, April 11, 2011
Emily is wonderful
I think everyone who reads this would agree: Emily Summers is exceptionally talented, and wonderful to be with. Success wants to come to her so earnestly, she just needs to accept it.
Sunday, April 10, 2011
Sleep Problems still
These sleep problems are draining. I am managing better today. I might get abck to an AM waking schedule tomorrow. The secret this time was animal protein. I got lucky yesterday, and it let me sleep near a normal time.
There is something strange going on at work. Many of the charge number they give us to use look bogus, artifical. They are not being updated promptly. The status of a charge number might still be "Requirements", but from the technical status description, they are in development phase. It isn't just one or two. More than half of the 100 charge numbers they give us look this way.
I have reached "Legendary" status in the game Wizard 101. My last set of armor is very powerful, but it is UGLY. The system won't allow me to change the colors, so I am stuck with it. I am keeping my old Helmet, though. Looks like a dragon's head, with a wide open mouth. My head appears in the mouth. Maybe I'll take a picture. I won 2 badges today. I am a Draconian Master for having killed 200 dragons. I also finished killing 500 robots, so I am a Techomancer.
No sleep, no energy, no exercise means gain weight. I hate this.
I don't think it is too much to ask to just feel refreshed each day when I wake up.
There is something strange going on at work. Many of the charge number they give us to use look bogus, artifical. They are not being updated promptly. The status of a charge number might still be "Requirements", but from the technical status description, they are in development phase. It isn't just one or two. More than half of the 100 charge numbers they give us look this way.
I have reached "Legendary" status in the game Wizard 101. My last set of armor is very powerful, but it is UGLY. The system won't allow me to change the colors, so I am stuck with it. I am keeping my old Helmet, though. Looks like a dragon's head, with a wide open mouth. My head appears in the mouth. Maybe I'll take a picture. I won 2 badges today. I am a Draconian Master for having killed 200 dragons. I also finished killing 500 robots, so I am a Techomancer.
No sleep, no energy, no exercise means gain weight. I hate this.
I don't think it is too much to ask to just feel refreshed each day when I wake up.
Saturday, April 2, 2011
My Blog is still here, Heather
I wanted to make a post, but thanks for the reminder, Heather. And to all my dedicated fans, I LOVE YOU.
At the suggestion of my Doctor, I got a Shingles vaccination today. It is a live virus. I read the background information on it. It only happens to people who recieved a certain vaccination as children. I was wondering when the downside of that kind of tampering would show up.
I have been having horrible problems with my sleep masks. I tried a smaller mask that just rides on top of the nose. It tended to shift upwards and block the nostrils. The shifting happens because the mask straps go around my head, and the shape of the back of my head has a slant. So I wqas unconsciously waking up half-way and shifting the mask 4 or 5 times a night.
So I went back to my old mask. I must have picked up a real old one from the box. I washed it, but it caused terrible infections on my face where the mask touched my skin. After 4 days, I had to stop. I looked closely with a magnifying glass. The mask must have hardened, because it was making very small cuts into my skin.
I called the Sleep Lab, and got a new mask Thursday night. This time I decided to try a full face mask, which covers both nose and mouth. I like this mask better, but it has a funny, beneficial effect. The first time I put the mask on, I could feel the cold air flowing around my lips. Eventually the air gets heated, and when I exhale, if I let some air out of my mouth, that warmed the mask up, too. The mask fits perfectly into my laugh wrinkles.
I woke up a few times last night, and this is what I noticed. I normally clench my teeth at night very hard. In the last 5 years, I have cracked 3 teeth. I have noticed over the last 5 years I have been using CPAP that I don't take deep enough breathes. The lower lobes of the lungs were not inflating. This is a stress trigger, which may account for my anxiety symptoms. I have actually starting taking my anxiety medication at night, and the overall affect is better.
So back to what I noticed last night(clever - how I left that completely out of the previous paragraph). Instead of tightly sealed lips, my lips were relaxed. Air was seeping into my mouth at the corners. This inflates my cheeks a little. I can tell my skin is not touching my gums. It does dry my mouth, but not too bad. Then I noticed that my lower lung lobes were inflating. Usually, I had to push with my diaphragm a bit to inflate those lobes. Now it was happening effortlessly. I slept 14 hours, but woke up refreshed, which is so rare for me.
I have been noticing my sleep periods starting to get shorter, which would really help at work. My boss is starting to get pissed that I am getting to work so late.
The apartment shows the level of my health. there are things stacked up here and there. Unused Q-tips that fell from my grasp all over the bath floor. The tub needs a good scrub. And I have 3 weeks of mail to sort through.
Have a Happy Gazhinta!
That's a new holiday, on 2 april, that I made up to celebrate being left-handed.
Larry
At the suggestion of my Doctor, I got a Shingles vaccination today. It is a live virus. I read the background information on it. It only happens to people who recieved a certain vaccination as children. I was wondering when the downside of that kind of tampering would show up.
I have been having horrible problems with my sleep masks. I tried a smaller mask that just rides on top of the nose. It tended to shift upwards and block the nostrils. The shifting happens because the mask straps go around my head, and the shape of the back of my head has a slant. So I wqas unconsciously waking up half-way and shifting the mask 4 or 5 times a night.
So I went back to my old mask. I must have picked up a real old one from the box. I washed it, but it caused terrible infections on my face where the mask touched my skin. After 4 days, I had to stop. I looked closely with a magnifying glass. The mask must have hardened, because it was making very small cuts into my skin.
I called the Sleep Lab, and got a new mask Thursday night. This time I decided to try a full face mask, which covers both nose and mouth. I like this mask better, but it has a funny, beneficial effect. The first time I put the mask on, I could feel the cold air flowing around my lips. Eventually the air gets heated, and when I exhale, if I let some air out of my mouth, that warmed the mask up, too. The mask fits perfectly into my laugh wrinkles.
I woke up a few times last night, and this is what I noticed. I normally clench my teeth at night very hard. In the last 5 years, I have cracked 3 teeth. I have noticed over the last 5 years I have been using CPAP that I don't take deep enough breathes. The lower lobes of the lungs were not inflating. This is a stress trigger, which may account for my anxiety symptoms. I have actually starting taking my anxiety medication at night, and the overall affect is better.
So back to what I noticed last night(clever - how I left that completely out of the previous paragraph). Instead of tightly sealed lips, my lips were relaxed. Air was seeping into my mouth at the corners. This inflates my cheeks a little. I can tell my skin is not touching my gums. It does dry my mouth, but not too bad. Then I noticed that my lower lung lobes were inflating. Usually, I had to push with my diaphragm a bit to inflate those lobes. Now it was happening effortlessly. I slept 14 hours, but woke up refreshed, which is so rare for me.
I have been noticing my sleep periods starting to get shorter, which would really help at work. My boss is starting to get pissed that I am getting to work so late.
The apartment shows the level of my health. there are things stacked up here and there. Unused Q-tips that fell from my grasp all over the bath floor. The tub needs a good scrub. And I have 3 weeks of mail to sort through.
Have a Happy Gazhinta!
That's a new holiday, on 2 april, that I made up to celebrate being left-handed.
Larry
Friday, March 18, 2011
Why am I so awake
It is 1:30 AM. At 6PM, I was so tired. I dreaded having to go shopping. I got how and vowed not to take a nap. As the evening wore on, I became more and more awake.
The only thing that makes sense is the blue light from the computer monitor. I have already reduced it's blue light output to 20%. Maybe I need to reduce it to zero. The interface to configure the monitor is hard to figure out. I made the change one day when I had slept really well, and I felt like I could figure anything out. I have tried a few times since then to reduce the blue light, and couldn't figure it out.
I love eating mixed vegetables. It's lots better than salad. Wait, Salad is...
The only thing that makes sense is the blue light from the computer monitor. I have already reduced it's blue light output to 20%. Maybe I need to reduce it to zero. The interface to configure the monitor is hard to figure out. I made the change one day when I had slept really well, and I felt like I could figure anything out. I have tried a few times since then to reduce the blue light, and couldn't figure it out.
I love eating mixed vegetables. It's lots better than salad. Wait, Salad is...
Tuesday, March 15, 2011
Sleep Journal 1
I am going to use this journal for a while to record my sleep patterns, see if that helps figure out what is happening to me.
Sat nite - Sun morn: started at midnight, finally alseep by 2 AM
awoke by alarm at 9Am, reset alarm to 10 Am, went back to sleep
awoke by alarm at 10 Am, hurried to go to Church
no time to use mood light - requires 45 minutes sitting still
really wanted to go, had missed 3 weeks perivious
when arrived at Church, realized it was mistake - actually stumbling around
Sat in comfortable chairs in foyer, fell alseep constantly during service
went home after first hour, went to sleep again at 1 PM
slept until 6:00 PM
active until midnight, fell asleep at 2 AM
Sun nite-Mon morn: awoke at 7 AM. Did not trust it after experience I had yesterday
used mood lite for an hour while played W101
at 8 Am, decided that I felt good enough to go to work.
arrived at work at 10 AM - earliest I had been to work in a long time
by noon, I was spent. Realized that I had a therapist appt at 3
got home at 12:30, slept until 2:15, awake by alarm
I had eaten my alloted calories already, but was hungry
bought a fast food burger on the way to therapist, no fries, no sauce
Mon nite - Tues Morn
Got back to work by 4:30 PM, worked until 7 PM
I was much more awake this time, and got a lot done
I was exhausted
Got home at 7:30, emptied pockets, off shoes, nap on bed
slept until 9 pM, played W101 until midnight
prepd for bed (meds and all), then surfed web to see pretty meditative fotos
fell asleep at 2 AM, partially awoke at noon, awake but tired
decided to sleep more, slept until 2 PM
woke up without alarm feeling great - wide awake
decided to use mood light anyway for 45 minutes to make sure
I arrived at work at 3:30PM. I stated until 10:30.
I had plenty of energy and stamina, and I was wide awake.
(The reason for this was because I ate a sugary treat)
I felt like I could continue to work for several hours,
but my eyes were starting to burn from sweat,
and I have a mtg at noon the next day.
Tues nite - Wed Morn:
I had hoped to be asleep by midnight.
I watched an episode of Fringe - it was great.
I forgot to fill the pillbox earlier, and there were other things that had to be done so I could go to sleep. I played boggle online, and was surprised at how well my mind was working. Normally, the first game gets an excellnet score, but by the 4th game, the scores were average. My scores kept getting better, so I decided to do something else.I then watched silly videos and picture on stumble upon until I felt tired.
I laid down at 1 AM. I stayed in bed for 2 hours, wide awake. It was not like I was thinking about things, or worrying. As I noticed something uncomfortable in my body, I made changes to accommodate it.
I got up and took another dosage of seroquel, and at a thawed package of mixed vegetables. They tasted great. I did some reading in a pamphlet about doing fasting cleanses for the body. Ha d to stop after 7 pages because I started to forget what I was reading as soon as i finished reading it. So I went to W101 to harvest Black Lotus flowers on the planet of MooShu. I need then to complete the final crafting quest, so I can be awarded the title of GrandMaster Artison.
WED MORN
I finally fell asleep at 4 AM. I awoke to alarm to prepare for a work phone meeting I have at noon. I feel a little rested, but could go back to sleep easily. My plan is to use the light therapy for a full 45 minutes or more, then go to work. I will stay as long as I can, the come home and sleep more.
Meeting was canceled. I changed my mind and laid back down to sleep. Slept to 5:30 PM. It is too late to go to work - I could, but I need to stop this cycle. This last sleep period, I slept with the spinal stimulator still turned on. I usually turn it off because the tingling sensation keeps me awake. I feel awake, a little weary - not sleepy, but no energy. All I have eaten today is a grapefruit and 3 grams of Spirulina. I do not feel hungry now, but I have some craving for sweets. I am going to resist.
Sat nite - Sun morn: started at midnight, finally alseep by 2 AM
awoke by alarm at 9Am, reset alarm to 10 Am, went back to sleep
awoke by alarm at 10 Am, hurried to go to Church
no time to use mood light - requires 45 minutes sitting still
really wanted to go, had missed 3 weeks perivious
when arrived at Church, realized it was mistake - actually stumbling around
Sat in comfortable chairs in foyer, fell alseep constantly during service
went home after first hour, went to sleep again at 1 PM
slept until 6:00 PM
active until midnight, fell asleep at 2 AM
Sun nite-Mon morn: awoke at 7 AM. Did not trust it after experience I had yesterday
used mood lite for an hour while played W101
at 8 Am, decided that I felt good enough to go to work.
arrived at work at 10 AM - earliest I had been to work in a long time
by noon, I was spent. Realized that I had a therapist appt at 3
got home at 12:30, slept until 2:15, awake by alarm
I had eaten my alloted calories already, but was hungry
bought a fast food burger on the way to therapist, no fries, no sauce
Mon nite - Tues Morn
Got back to work by 4:30 PM, worked until 7 PM
I was much more awake this time, and got a lot done
I was exhausted
Got home at 7:30, emptied pockets, off shoes, nap on bed
slept until 9 pM, played W101 until midnight
prepd for bed (meds and all), then surfed web to see pretty meditative fotos
fell asleep at 2 AM, partially awoke at noon, awake but tired
decided to sleep more, slept until 2 PM
woke up without alarm feeling great - wide awake
decided to use mood light anyway for 45 minutes to make sure
I arrived at work at 3:30PM. I stated until 10:30.
I had plenty of energy and stamina, and I was wide awake.
(The reason for this was because I ate a sugary treat)
I felt like I could continue to work for several hours,
but my eyes were starting to burn from sweat,
and I have a mtg at noon the next day.
Tues nite - Wed Morn:
I had hoped to be asleep by midnight.
I watched an episode of Fringe - it was great.
I forgot to fill the pillbox earlier, and there were other things that had to be done so I could go to sleep. I played boggle online, and was surprised at how well my mind was working. Normally, the first game gets an excellnet score, but by the 4th game, the scores were average. My scores kept getting better, so I decided to do something else.I then watched silly videos and picture on stumble upon until I felt tired.
I laid down at 1 AM. I stayed in bed for 2 hours, wide awake. It was not like I was thinking about things, or worrying. As I noticed something uncomfortable in my body, I made changes to accommodate it.
I got up and took another dosage of seroquel, and at a thawed package of mixed vegetables. They tasted great. I did some reading in a pamphlet about doing fasting cleanses for the body. Ha d to stop after 7 pages because I started to forget what I was reading as soon as i finished reading it. So I went to W101 to harvest Black Lotus flowers on the planet of MooShu. I need then to complete the final crafting quest, so I can be awarded the title of GrandMaster Artison.
WED MORN
I finally fell asleep at 4 AM. I awoke to alarm to prepare for a work phone meeting I have at noon. I feel a little rested, but could go back to sleep easily. My plan is to use the light therapy for a full 45 minutes or more, then go to work. I will stay as long as I can, the come home and sleep more.
Meeting was canceled. I changed my mind and laid back down to sleep. Slept to 5:30 PM. It is too late to go to work - I could, but I need to stop this cycle. This last sleep period, I slept with the spinal stimulator still turned on. I usually turn it off because the tingling sensation keeps me awake. I feel awake, a little weary - not sleepy, but no energy. All I have eaten today is a grapefruit and 3 grams of Spirulina. I do not feel hungry now, but I have some craving for sweets. I am going to resist.
Thursday, March 10, 2011
Sleep - a possible solution
I got a call from Total Sleep today about my quality of sleep. They asked me if the inside of my nose is raw. It has been for about 2 months. They said, it could be that I am not using enough distilled water each night (set the hydration to a higher level), OR I might be using the wrong kind of mask for my nose. This last tritation test, I did switch masks per sugggestion by the sleep tech.
So, I will be using neosporin inside my nose morn and eve, and will use more distilled water. It is a pain because this new unit needs to be washed every day using non-antibacterial baby soap and a tooth brush.
But if it gives me relief, it is worth it
So, I will be using neosporin inside my nose morn and eve, and will use more distilled water. It is a pain because this new unit needs to be washed every day using non-antibacterial baby soap and a tooth brush.
But if it gives me relief, it is worth it
Tuesday, March 1, 2011
Exercise and coreespondence to sleep patterns
I have been out on my new trike twice. I didn't go on Monday because I was sick.
The first time was 30 minutes. It was fun, and I didn't want to stop, but my legs were complaining.
I went into the house and took a nap from 6 PM to 7 PM. This was the first Tuna Fish Sleep experiment night.
The second day, I was out for 45 minutes, and had to stop because I was out of breath. Muscles were only complaining a little. Many people spoke to me how nice the bike looked. Wen standing in the parking lot would hold up the cigarette or beer and nod as I passed by. One young lady dressed in East Indian robes really brightened up and exclaimed, I really like your trike. Another young hispanic boy talked to me for a few minutes while I caught my breath about how much he admired the machine. It is beautiful to look at.
The first time was 30 minutes. It was fun, and I didn't want to stop, but my legs were complaining.
I went into the house and took a nap from 6 PM to 7 PM. This was the first Tuna Fish Sleep experiment night.
The second day, I was out for 45 minutes, and had to stop because I was out of breath. Muscles were only complaining a little. Many people spoke to me how nice the bike looked. Wen standing in the parking lot would hold up the cigarette or beer and nod as I passed by. One young lady dressed in East Indian robes really brightened up and exclaimed, I really like your trike. Another young hispanic boy talked to me for a few minutes while I caught my breath about how much he admired the machine. It is beautiful to look at.
Sleep Experiments Continued
Using the Imitation crab as a protein source to create serotonin rarely works.
Using only spirulina as a protein source to create serotonin rarely works.
The combination of these to works more often, but still less than 25%.
Using spirulina and Whey protein rarely works.
In all the tests above, there came a desire for sweets in 30 minutes.
Indulging with honey seemed to increase the chance of sleep,
but it took too much in my opinion.
In all of these tests, I am also taking seroquel and Xanax.
I switched to taking Xanax at night, and it did seem to imporve things.
I have used Tuna Fish (TF) as the source for protein, with Spirulina, for the last 3 nights.
I continued hte use of Xanax and Seroquel
The results have been very good. There is still a desire for sweets, but instead of honey,
I ate more tuna fish, and that seemed to handle it. I fell alseep within the first hour of starting this regimine.
On the first TF night, I slept very soundly for 3 hours. I dreamed for the first time in a long time. Upon waking, I had more TF and Seroquel, and was able to get back to sleep in an hour. and slept deeply and dreamfully 3.5 hours when the alarm went off to get ready for Church (9AM). I tried on this amount of sleep, and it wasn't enough. I was barely able to stay awake. I did not take any more meds/food, and slept again. I woke up at 4PM, seven hours later. This was not a deep sleep.
On the second TF night, I only had TF at the start. , with the same results, 2 sleep periods, very deep with dreams. I believe the waking after 3 to 4 hours is the seroquel running off. I tried going to work at 9 AM, and last 5 hours before I was just too sleepy to continue. Also flu symptoms returned, had diarhea all the rest of the day. So I fast and drank only water. I was supposed to go shopping that night, but didn't. I was upset because I didn't get home fast enough between bouts of diarhea, and soiled my clothes. I did not want to wear diapers, so I didn't go out again.
On the third TF night, I only had 1 can of TF left. This time the first sleep period was 6 hours. I think was due to adding one additional therapy.
Prior to bedtime, I use the computer. Note: I have altered my Display so that is only using 20% of its Blue Light. It comes from the factory configured with 50% for each of Red, Green and Blue. I won't wexplain here why blue light is an issue for sleep quality
I was typically using Stumble Upon for months, until I found a game called W101. A week ago, I used a meditation game called Journey to the Wild Divine for the last waking hour of the day. I was much more relaxed, but I did not fall asleep. The difference today was that I used the Alpha-Stim for the entire evening while I used the computer. I was using W101 for 2 hours. It was an active session, meeting several new people, and battling monsters that were of a classification outside the range of my character. I think this is why I slept for 6 hours instead of just 3, but it could also be because of the accumulation of 3 days of better sleep after so little sleep for so long.
If I had more tuna, I would eat it now. The only protein in the house is eggs and Spirulina. I did experiments with eating eggs at night as the protein source to create serotonin, with no lock. I have taken more seroquel and I hope that is enough. I have been awake for an hour now - it is 7 AM. I hope this new regimine will last more that just a week. In the past, when I find something that works, it only works for 3 to 7 days, then stops.
I was taking more L-Tryptophan to help the creation of Serotonin, and at first this worked when taken with just Spirulina. But the sleep was dreamless. This only worked for 3 days.
In the last 3 days, when I do have a deep sleep with dreams, I wake up with sweaty upper garments. Whatever I have worn from the waste up have to be removed and replaced.
One the second TF day, I had a weird experience on the second awakening of the night. This use to happen a lot when I was younger. I was awake, but I was not able to make my body move. It took great effort just to take off the CPAP mask and sit up on the side of the bed. My muscles would not respond to the requests. Since this has happened to me many times during my life, it did not freak me out. I subscribe it to whatever drugs the body creates to keep us from sleep walking during the night.
This is why I started using the blue light therapy to wake up years ago. It was the only thing I found that was affective against removing those sleep-paralysis drugs out of my system. My hands would start out feeling like I was wearing a tick pair of gloves on, and the fingers would move slowly, and they had no strength. I would drop things often. Once I was able to hold a pen in my hand a write, it was safe to do other things, like crack an egg. If I tried to crack an egg before this time, I would either drop it or smash it to bits with my thumb.
Using only spirulina as a protein source to create serotonin rarely works.
The combination of these to works more often, but still less than 25%.
Using spirulina and Whey protein rarely works.
In all the tests above, there came a desire for sweets in 30 minutes.
Indulging with honey seemed to increase the chance of sleep,
but it took too much in my opinion.
In all of these tests, I am also taking seroquel and Xanax.
I switched to taking Xanax at night, and it did seem to imporve things.
I have used Tuna Fish (TF) as the source for protein, with Spirulina, for the last 3 nights.
I continued hte use of Xanax and Seroquel
The results have been very good. There is still a desire for sweets, but instead of honey,
I ate more tuna fish, and that seemed to handle it. I fell alseep within the first hour of starting this regimine.
On the first TF night, I slept very soundly for 3 hours. I dreamed for the first time in a long time. Upon waking, I had more TF and Seroquel, and was able to get back to sleep in an hour. and slept deeply and dreamfully 3.5 hours when the alarm went off to get ready for Church (9AM). I tried on this amount of sleep, and it wasn't enough. I was barely able to stay awake. I did not take any more meds/food, and slept again. I woke up at 4PM, seven hours later. This was not a deep sleep.
On the second TF night, I only had TF at the start. , with the same results, 2 sleep periods, very deep with dreams. I believe the waking after 3 to 4 hours is the seroquel running off. I tried going to work at 9 AM, and last 5 hours before I was just too sleepy to continue. Also flu symptoms returned, had diarhea all the rest of the day. So I fast and drank only water. I was supposed to go shopping that night, but didn't. I was upset because I didn't get home fast enough between bouts of diarhea, and soiled my clothes. I did not want to wear diapers, so I didn't go out again.
On the third TF night, I only had 1 can of TF left. This time the first sleep period was 6 hours. I think was due to adding one additional therapy.
Prior to bedtime, I use the computer. Note: I have altered my Display so that is only using 20% of its Blue Light. It comes from the factory configured with 50% for each of Red, Green and Blue. I won't wexplain here why blue light is an issue for sleep quality
I was typically using Stumble Upon for months, until I found a game called W101. A week ago, I used a meditation game called Journey to the Wild Divine for the last waking hour of the day. I was much more relaxed, but I did not fall asleep. The difference today was that I used the Alpha-Stim for the entire evening while I used the computer. I was using W101 for 2 hours. It was an active session, meeting several new people, and battling monsters that were of a classification outside the range of my character. I think this is why I slept for 6 hours instead of just 3, but it could also be because of the accumulation of 3 days of better sleep after so little sleep for so long.
If I had more tuna, I would eat it now. The only protein in the house is eggs and Spirulina. I did experiments with eating eggs at night as the protein source to create serotonin, with no lock. I have taken more seroquel and I hope that is enough. I have been awake for an hour now - it is 7 AM. I hope this new regimine will last more that just a week. In the past, when I find something that works, it only works for 3 to 7 days, then stops.
I was taking more L-Tryptophan to help the creation of Serotonin, and at first this worked when taken with just Spirulina. But the sleep was dreamless. This only worked for 3 days.
In the last 3 days, when I do have a deep sleep with dreams, I wake up with sweaty upper garments. Whatever I have worn from the waste up have to be removed and replaced.
One the second TF day, I had a weird experience on the second awakening of the night. This use to happen a lot when I was younger. I was awake, but I was not able to make my body move. It took great effort just to take off the CPAP mask and sit up on the side of the bed. My muscles would not respond to the requests. Since this has happened to me many times during my life, it did not freak me out. I subscribe it to whatever drugs the body creates to keep us from sleep walking during the night.
This is why I started using the blue light therapy to wake up years ago. It was the only thing I found that was affective against removing those sleep-paralysis drugs out of my system. My hands would start out feeling like I was wearing a tick pair of gloves on, and the fingers would move slowly, and they had no strength. I would drop things often. Once I was able to hold a pen in my hand a write, it was safe to do other things, like crack an egg. If I tried to crack an egg before this time, I would either drop it or smash it to bits with my thumb.
Wednesday, February 2, 2011
Diet - Culmination of Ideas
In the last month, I have reached a weight loss goal making this the most weight I have lost in a continuous period in my life. I have tried a lot of experiments. I have read a lot of food labels. This is what is working for me right now.
The number one surprise to me is wheat. I did a blood sugar test after I eat wheat. My blood sugar gets very high. I metabolize it very fast. I did not start losing weight until I cut out wheat altogether. I am currently eating no grains at all.
I had some tests done 5 years ago to determine foods for which I have intolerance or allergic reaction. There are 2 tests that are done IG0 and IG1. I have since been to an allergy specialist, who told me that the IGo test is an allergy test and the IG1 is the intolerance test. The IG0 is 100% accurate and the IG1 is only 40% accurate.
Based on that information, I have tried bring some of the items identified in the IG1 test, to see what physical symptoms I would get. As a result, I have started eating eggs again, and carrots.
The 2 most common intolerance symptoms of these foods identified on the IG1 test were increased mucus/flem in the sinus and headache.
I was losing weight using a diet plan I found on the WWW called The Diet Solution. I had to get creative with the diet plan because it was based on one's weight, and it did not extend far enough for the extreme weight that I had when I began the diet, which was 355 LBS. There was a pattern in the tabular data the author presented which was easily deduced, and I extrapolated it to extend to higher weights.
after a while, I got lazy, and stopped weighing the ounces of each food, but I had learned to recognize the serving size by eye, so I continued to lose weight.
Then, I started a new plan, based on a book leant to me from a friend. The bulk of my diet now consists of spirulina. Spirulina is the lowest food on the food pyramid, made from blue-green algae. It contains all the essentials for life - all the amino acids, etc.
I was reviewing my food budget, and noticed that the bulk of my food costs was meat = 66%. I have been trying to lessen my eco-footprint, and also save money, so I began to look into Spirulina again.
My current daily diet consists of:
Breakfast: 5 grams spirulina, 1 egg, 1 grapefruit, fiber supplement and optional 1 cup thawed mixed vegetables and optional 2 to 4 ounces imitation crab
Lunch: 2.5 grams Spirulina and an apple
Supper: 1/2 head of diced cabbage boiled for 5 minutes - then I drink the excess liquid used to cook the cabbage as a tea (I REALLY LIKE COOKED CABBAGE)
Late Dinner: 2.5 grams Spirulina and another Apple with optional banana
The sugar foods at night are because of my metabolic type. Sugar foods make me drowsy.
I plan to drop the imitation crab when I run out of what I purchased and stored in the fridge. One of the difficulties I have shopping is that you are doing it on foot, the lighting isn't bright enough for me to read small print, and I keep losing my magnifying glass. I thought the imitation crab was basically Polluck with crab drippings for flavor and artificial coloring to make it look like crab. It actually has a long list of ingredients, including processed soy, wheat and sugar. So off the Grocery shopping list it goes.
So at that point, I will be a vegetarian again. The protein in Spirulina has the same effect in my metabolism as animal protein. My body reacts differently between animal and vegetable protein. I noticed emotional differences and mental differences.
On vegetable protein, I am calmer, but not as quick thinking or creative. One of the reasons I stopped being a vegetarian years ago is because it was affecting my work. The quality of my software plummeted. we're talkin' tanked - as in ordinary, generic and just plain mediocre.
We'll see if I can sustain that diet, or if I have to being animal protein back in some form. I don't plan on going totally Spirulina, as some people do. I want my metabolism to remember how to poop. And I really don't want to give up grapefruit. They're heavenly, but just red grapefruit. Yellow grapefruit is gross...
The number one surprise to me is wheat. I did a blood sugar test after I eat wheat. My blood sugar gets very high. I metabolize it very fast. I did not start losing weight until I cut out wheat altogether. I am currently eating no grains at all.
I had some tests done 5 years ago to determine foods for which I have intolerance or allergic reaction. There are 2 tests that are done IG0 and IG1. I have since been to an allergy specialist, who told me that the IGo test is an allergy test and the IG1 is the intolerance test. The IG0 is 100% accurate and the IG1 is only 40% accurate.
Based on that information, I have tried bring some of the items identified in the IG1 test, to see what physical symptoms I would get. As a result, I have started eating eggs again, and carrots.
The 2 most common intolerance symptoms of these foods identified on the IG1 test were increased mucus/flem in the sinus and headache.
I was losing weight using a diet plan I found on the WWW called The Diet Solution. I had to get creative with the diet plan because it was based on one's weight, and it did not extend far enough for the extreme weight that I had when I began the diet, which was 355 LBS. There was a pattern in the tabular data the author presented which was easily deduced, and I extrapolated it to extend to higher weights.
after a while, I got lazy, and stopped weighing the ounces of each food, but I had learned to recognize the serving size by eye, so I continued to lose weight.
Then, I started a new plan, based on a book leant to me from a friend. The bulk of my diet now consists of spirulina. Spirulina is the lowest food on the food pyramid, made from blue-green algae. It contains all the essentials for life - all the amino acids, etc.
I was reviewing my food budget, and noticed that the bulk of my food costs was meat = 66%. I have been trying to lessen my eco-footprint, and also save money, so I began to look into Spirulina again.
My current daily diet consists of:
Breakfast: 5 grams spirulina, 1 egg, 1 grapefruit, fiber supplement and optional 1 cup thawed mixed vegetables and optional 2 to 4 ounces imitation crab
Lunch: 2.5 grams Spirulina and an apple
Supper: 1/2 head of diced cabbage boiled for 5 minutes - then I drink the excess liquid used to cook the cabbage as a tea (I REALLY LIKE COOKED CABBAGE)
Late Dinner: 2.5 grams Spirulina and another Apple with optional banana
The sugar foods at night are because of my metabolic type. Sugar foods make me drowsy.
I plan to drop the imitation crab when I run out of what I purchased and stored in the fridge. One of the difficulties I have shopping is that you are doing it on foot, the lighting isn't bright enough for me to read small print, and I keep losing my magnifying glass. I thought the imitation crab was basically Polluck with crab drippings for flavor and artificial coloring to make it look like crab. It actually has a long list of ingredients, including processed soy, wheat and sugar. So off the Grocery shopping list it goes.
So at that point, I will be a vegetarian again. The protein in Spirulina has the same effect in my metabolism as animal protein. My body reacts differently between animal and vegetable protein. I noticed emotional differences and mental differences.
On vegetable protein, I am calmer, but not as quick thinking or creative. One of the reasons I stopped being a vegetarian years ago is because it was affecting my work. The quality of my software plummeted. we're talkin' tanked - as in ordinary, generic and just plain mediocre.
We'll see if I can sustain that diet, or if I have to being animal protein back in some form. I don't plan on going totally Spirulina, as some people do. I want my metabolism to remember how to poop. And I really don't want to give up grapefruit. They're heavenly, but just red grapefruit. Yellow grapefruit is gross...
Sleep - Culmination of Ideas
It has been a long time since I woke up refreshed. I've have tried many things. I want to record my thoughts now, because I have learned some important things.
I was told by the radiologist at the orthopeadics center that I have the largest set of lungs he had ever seen. He had to use 2 pieces of film in order to get a whole shot of the lung, and he has never had to do that before. The entire lower lobes of the lungs were on the second piece of film.
I have noticed that when I sit up, my mid-section presses against my lungs. It makes it very difficult for me to fill the lower lobes of the lungs. When I use a lot of strength and focus to fill those lobes, I relax rather quickly. That's why meditation works so well for me.
When I am waiting to get sleepy after taking night-time meds, I am sitting up. I should lie down to fill my lungs completely in order to feel sleepy sooner.
Now I want to talk about the arms.
I take anxiety medication. One of my most prominent anxiety physical symptoms is tingling or rather a skin sensitivity in the forearms and hands. This is why I always wear short sleeve shirts, and may even be why I don't like to dress formally, because it typically requires long sleeve shirts.
For most of my adult life, I have slept on my side, and would switch sides often all night. The bottom arm would be moved so as not to be under me, and often was used to support my head. I think this is because I have such a big upper body mass, especially when I was younger.
The mattress didn't have enough give to allow my lungs to expand if I laid on my back. Within 45 minutes of laying on my back, I would feel my feet get numb and cold. I always assumed it was because I had such huge calves on my legs, that they were not sinking enough into the mattress, and thus restricting the blood flow and oxygen deliver to the lower part of my legs. I now think the expansion of my lungs were also part of that problem.
When I laid on my side, it allowed the lung on the upper side to fully expand, filling the lower lobe. I slept mostly on my left side, using my left had to support my head and neck. I did this for so long, I am unable to straighten my left arm completely. I have lost about 15% of range of motion in the left elbow.
When I came to Texas, I bought a new bed. I investigated mattresses on the WWW, and found the softest mattress I could find - 13 inches of memory foam.
This is the first mattress upon which I am able to sleep while lying on my back. My feet don't go numb when I lie on my back on this mattress.
Once I got new hips, the blood-flow to the feet was even better.
Now that I have lost some weight, socks can fit around my calf. In the past, no sock could stretch enough to fit my calf, so I always bought short socks. Now I can pull winter socks all the way over the calf, and they stay there.
The very few times I got a good night's sleep this year, I have had socks on the whole night.
When I sleep on my back, the right arm is up and curled above my head. The left arm is lying by my side. I have an unconscious habit of putting my left had on my chest, which then causes the left hand to get cold. sometimes this is so bad, it wakes me up.
When I begin to fall asleep, I get hot. If I have too many blankets on at that time, it keeps me from falling asleep. I have to make sure it is cool enough in the room in order to fall asleep.
I have to make sure my right arm stays under a blanket tough, otherwise, later in the night, my right arm pit gets so cold, it wakes me up.
The few times I have slept well this year, I have had a Tee-shirt over my underwear. And in each of those cases, both arms have been curled up over my head.
I have just woken up as I write this. I noticed today that both arms were raised to lay above my head. As I woke up, I noticed how slowly I was breathing, and how deeply. Both lower lobes of the lungs were being used.
Other times during the year, when I have woken up at night, I have noticed how shallow my breathes were. It was almost like I wasn't breathing at all. It was like I learned to create some kind of convection of air in my lungs, to circulate air slowly with almost no muscle movement. This is how I probably breathed at night most of my adult night.
I have been trying to lessen my carbon-footprint by cutting back on heat. We had an ice-storm last night, so I left he heat at a higher temperature all night. I think that also contributed to a better night's sleep.
Another difference from last night was a medication change I tried for the first time. I decided to take mt anti-anxiety medication at night, instead of in the morning. I think I will continue to do this. It may make it possible for me to wear a long sleeve night shirt or a half-sleeve night shirt, thus slowing heat loss in the arm pits during the night.
I was told by the radiologist at the orthopeadics center that I have the largest set of lungs he had ever seen. He had to use 2 pieces of film in order to get a whole shot of the lung, and he has never had to do that before. The entire lower lobes of the lungs were on the second piece of film.
I have noticed that when I sit up, my mid-section presses against my lungs. It makes it very difficult for me to fill the lower lobes of the lungs. When I use a lot of strength and focus to fill those lobes, I relax rather quickly. That's why meditation works so well for me.
When I am waiting to get sleepy after taking night-time meds, I am sitting up. I should lie down to fill my lungs completely in order to feel sleepy sooner.
Now I want to talk about the arms.
I take anxiety medication. One of my most prominent anxiety physical symptoms is tingling or rather a skin sensitivity in the forearms and hands. This is why I always wear short sleeve shirts, and may even be why I don't like to dress formally, because it typically requires long sleeve shirts.
For most of my adult life, I have slept on my side, and would switch sides often all night. The bottom arm would be moved so as not to be under me, and often was used to support my head. I think this is because I have such a big upper body mass, especially when I was younger.
The mattress didn't have enough give to allow my lungs to expand if I laid on my back. Within 45 minutes of laying on my back, I would feel my feet get numb and cold. I always assumed it was because I had such huge calves on my legs, that they were not sinking enough into the mattress, and thus restricting the blood flow and oxygen deliver to the lower part of my legs. I now think the expansion of my lungs were also part of that problem.
When I laid on my side, it allowed the lung on the upper side to fully expand, filling the lower lobe. I slept mostly on my left side, using my left had to support my head and neck. I did this for so long, I am unable to straighten my left arm completely. I have lost about 15% of range of motion in the left elbow.
When I came to Texas, I bought a new bed. I investigated mattresses on the WWW, and found the softest mattress I could find - 13 inches of memory foam.
This is the first mattress upon which I am able to sleep while lying on my back. My feet don't go numb when I lie on my back on this mattress.
Once I got new hips, the blood-flow to the feet was even better.
Now that I have lost some weight, socks can fit around my calf. In the past, no sock could stretch enough to fit my calf, so I always bought short socks. Now I can pull winter socks all the way over the calf, and they stay there.
The very few times I got a good night's sleep this year, I have had socks on the whole night.
When I sleep on my back, the right arm is up and curled above my head. The left arm is lying by my side. I have an unconscious habit of putting my left had on my chest, which then causes the left hand to get cold. sometimes this is so bad, it wakes me up.
When I begin to fall asleep, I get hot. If I have too many blankets on at that time, it keeps me from falling asleep. I have to make sure it is cool enough in the room in order to fall asleep.
I have to make sure my right arm stays under a blanket tough, otherwise, later in the night, my right arm pit gets so cold, it wakes me up.
The few times I have slept well this year, I have had a Tee-shirt over my underwear. And in each of those cases, both arms have been curled up over my head.
I have just woken up as I write this. I noticed today that both arms were raised to lay above my head. As I woke up, I noticed how slowly I was breathing, and how deeply. Both lower lobes of the lungs were being used.
Other times during the year, when I have woken up at night, I have noticed how shallow my breathes were. It was almost like I wasn't breathing at all. It was like I learned to create some kind of convection of air in my lungs, to circulate air slowly with almost no muscle movement. This is how I probably breathed at night most of my adult night.
I have been trying to lessen my carbon-footprint by cutting back on heat. We had an ice-storm last night, so I left he heat at a higher temperature all night. I think that also contributed to a better night's sleep.
Another difference from last night was a medication change I tried for the first time. I decided to take mt anti-anxiety medication at night, instead of in the morning. I think I will continue to do this. It may make it possible for me to wear a long sleeve night shirt or a half-sleeve night shirt, thus slowing heat loss in the arm pits during the night.
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