Raindrops

Raindrops is the name of a game in luminosity.com. I do OK in the game, but have difficulty with something surprising.   It presents me with simple math problems: addidion, subtraction, multiplication and division.   The problem is - I mis-read the symbol. that tells you which to do.  I misread the -  for +.  and I misread the x for +. 

Maybe I just like the + better than the others

3D Printing

I am wearing a TENS unit again.  It helps when I can't take the stronger pain meds.

3D Printing is not the answer.  It has the worst carbon footprint.  The Grid caNNOT MEET THE DEMAND THAT THERE WILL BE IF EVERYONE HAD ONE. 

REmedy

Using Melotonin & Sleepytime Celestial Seasonings tea (Chamomile), I was able to fall asleep pretty fast and stayed asleep.  I woke up with a fast mind and very slow fingers

Eh!

I had trouble again last night falling asleep.  I went to bed at 2 AM.  I woke up in the middle of the night to find my body was very tense.   I willed it to relax, and I wne t limp and fell back into a deep sleep.

I purchased some night time herbal tea, and some melatonin to help with this.

It is a light rain today.

I shopped at target, and the bathrooms were closed for cleaning.  I had to go, and it got very bad by the time I got home.  No toilet is big enough for me to sit and do both.  So to urinate, I stand up and fase the toilet.  My tummy gets in the way so I can;t see the stream.  So I lean forward and put my hands on the wall, so I won't drip on myself.   In this position, I lost control and went both at the same time.  I am still angry about this, and haven't cleaned up my clothes.  They lie in a heap in the bathroom.

I have discovered BrainHQ, which is better than luminosity.   That is why there are so many ads for luminosity, because now they have compettition.   I think BrainHQ will buy Luminosity within 5 years

Worm in the Hand

WOrm in the hand is a game or toy, like Jack in teh Box.

I wear leather gloves when doing rough play with my dog.   We invented a new game today.   I stick my thumb (the worm) into my fist.   I pull it back out and wiggle it, then hide it again in the fist.  I watch Shou Shou's tail to know when she is building enough excitement to let her catch the worm.

It is great fun.

Another Sleepless Night

It is 1:30 AM, and I still can't sleep.   Blood sugar is 173, high, but not so high as to keep me awake.    I have no idea.  I have recently discovered that I have become impotent - even drugs did not help there.   SO, it could be worry or just sadness about a loss of part of my identity. 

THe logic of Lilith

I learned about Lilith yesterday.   She was supposedly Adam's first wife,  The source of this information is ancient Jewish Myths.

It is recorded that Eve was created from Adam's Rib.  Why wasn't Eve created from the dust of the earth, like Adam?  Hence came the concept of Lilith, being made from the dust of the earth.   So to match recorded scripture, Adam & Lilith had to become separated and have no children.

TO explain the separation of Adam & Lilith, it was conjectured that she rebelled against Adam, and wanted to be considered Equal to him.  When that didn't happen, she  rebelled.  When Eve was created, Lilith became jealous, and vowed to kill all babies.  So three angels were dispatched to control Lilith.

Since Lilith did not partake of the forbidden fruit, she still lives, and is sequestered by the 3 angels.

The bases of all this musiings was to excuse the subjegation of women by men, especially in marriage.  A Devil's doctrine, invented by man for the purposes for men. 

IMHO, the part about ADam's Rib was inserterd into a text by a non-prophet.  Brigham Young makes it very clear that Adam & Eve had belly buttons

Watch behind my ears

I am jsut recording this for future generations.
The ridge in the skull behind my ears is really swollen.
There is something under the skin, that is flexible, and really sore.
I massage it, but it does not go away

RObots and new shoes

I have a NEato robot, meaning the Neato vacuum.   Shou Shou normally barks at it.  Today, when the robot got in the way of Shou Shou's food, she got vicious - ROOOOAR, rar rar rar rar

I bought new shoes because my feet were really swollen.   They are made of lycra, and have a velcro strap.   I got a foot massage today.   Using the velcro strap as a guide, I can tell that the circumference of the arch of my foot is 2 INCHES SMALLER after the massage.    Dang!

I can't go back to my old job

My therapist suggested that I make a timeline of events that led up to the suicide attept.  I worked on it for an hour, and had to stop.   It affects me too badly.   From this experience, I know for certain that I cannot return to my old job.   I thought I could do it for a little while, but I can't.

I finally got some money.   I will save it for the move back to CA.  I will live on as little as possible.