Lowered Feelings

Lowered Feelings is an old term which is now called depressed. I like to think of depression as a balloon that was filled until the elastic was stretched, and then some air was let out, and the balloon looks a little saggy. It is the equilibrium manifested by the outside air pressure and the inside air pressure. Emotional depression is the equilibrium manisfested between outside stress and internal resolve.

I am down today. I am beginning to obcess about my Strike duty assignment. I don't want to have to go to connecticut. The contingency planning group is overwhelmed, and my request just might be left waiting because there is no one to look at it. I am going to speak with my boss about it today. I need to decide what to do. I have tentatively decided to wiat until the end of the month, and if they have not responded to me by then, I will accept the assignment and start training. This decision has steadied me somewhat.