What a pain!

The office of new Pain Mgmt doctor called, and the soonest I could get in to see him was 4 weeks.  When I heard that, my heart dropped to the floor - didn't even bounce.  4 WEEKS OF THIS PAIN - I can't take that.

I sent an email to my Primary Care Physician, and we looked for other options.   I might be able to get into see someone next Monday.   I am praying hard.

I am geetting a new pain.   It is not really new, I used to get it all the time 30 years ago.  I know it well.   It is a tension headache from typing too much, or sitting erect with tension to leave my arms free to work.   I would get these headaches on the right side of my head that felt like my skull was going to split open.   The strange thing is that these would happen while I was sleeping.  I wouild be woken up around 1 or 2 AM.

I would have to get up and sit in a comfortable position in the dark, and meditate until my neck and shoulders relaxed, and then I would fall back asleep quickly.  It usually took 90 minutes of silent mantra chanting.

Once, in the middle of this meditation, I had a vision.   I was shown a book that was the history of the people of earth.  I only read 4 paragraphs.  Those 4 paragraphs concisely described the entire history of the untied states (even it's future end).  I marveled at how well it was written, how precise the wording was so that it said so much using so little.  And then the vision faded.  I wanted to write down what I had read, but the words were taken from me.   I felt them slipping away.   This is something that I will always remember