starting again

It is time to start porting again. Even a few lines is better than none. I am back to work full time. I am working on the front end - meaning that I help find sources of data and veryify they are complete and undertstand all the relationships within the data.

I am liking this much more than what I did before.

I am still waiting to hear about getting a new strike assignment. Depending on what it is, I may hove lots of training to get. I have decided that if I don't get a new one, but they have me keep the old one that I will do it. The Facilitiy I would be coordinating is 2180 N. Glenville Rd, Richardson, TX. I checked on google earth - small building - 2 stories. Only 150 cars in parking lots, max 200. So I may only have to deal with 100 strikers. I would feel a lot better if there was a fence around the property. One of my responsibilities is to monitor the strikers to make sure they don't molest people's cars - slash tires - sugar in gas tanks, etc.

I overheard a 20 year AT&T veteran that since the economy is so bad, there may not even be a strike. The bargained-for employees might continue to work in "good faith" without a contract while it is initiated.

For the last 7 days, I have awoke at 4:30 AM after only 6 hours of sleep. I hae been taking more anxiety meds and going back to bed. Today I have no respoinsibilities in the evening. I was thinking of attending a meeting of CODA. I am staying up today to test if my body is telling me it does not need more sleep.

I have put in 2 eight hour days at work in a row. I do feel tired afterward, but not exhausted. I am watching it though - I can feel th old habits wanting to come back - taking shortcuts with my self care, ao I can "do more".

I have attended Recovery-Inc for 3 weeks now. I like it - it is helping. I have ordered the 2 main books, and will begin studying. The books are by Abraham Low: Mental Health Through will-Training and Manage Your Fears, Manage Your Anger. It is a simple process, but one needs to memorize it and be diligent about practicing it. Maybe I will finally learn how to relax.