I have an assignment to decribe in words what a panic attack feels like. just the physical sensations. no interpretation, no judgement.
today's attack was a doozy. It was the first time I felt the attack in my arms and legs.
I am still feeling this attack while I write this.
I feel a tightness around my wrist on both arms, as if there was a thin sting around the joint pulled very tight. The backs and palms of my hands are tingling, as well as the tips of my fingers. There is a pain on the inner forearm that starts at the wrist and goes down to the elbow. This pain comes from deep inside. It feels as if it is coming from the bone marrow.
My hands are hot.
As the attack quiets down, the pain in my forwearm weakens first. My feet are almost better, but the arms still have a way to go. It is very difficult to type.
I drove a car during the attack, and my legs were weakened so much by the attack that I could not stand holding the brake pedal down at street lights. I had to put the car into park. I felt pain as I pressed the pedals, even though my feet are numb on the surface skin. This pain was internal to the foot and shin. There was no tingling sensation on the toes or surface of the foot.
There was a little discomfort in the stomach, a small knot, which was so small I could ignore it.
The Attack started at 6PM and was not completely gone until 1:30 AM (after one hour of quality sleep).
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I have realized later after this was written that part of what I described here was due to missing a dosage of lyrica, a pain medication for nerve pain. Panic and nerve pain feel very much the same.
Monday, April 1, 2013
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