A Swelling in the Bosom

I have been trying to foster a feeling of well-being throughout the day.

I used to meditate using mantras. It was a mental exercise - keeping my mind focused on one thing, and eventually I would feel real good. It would start with me being aware of my body. Then I would hear a high pitched squeal - it sounds very distance. Then I would have a swelling in my bosom - a feeling of warmth. It would take me 20 minutes to get to the self-awareness, then 20 minutes to get to the burning in the bosom. If I meditated for more than an hour, I would get very hot, and have a light sweat.

My therapist suggested that instead of using a mantra, that I focus my attention on my bosom, how I felt in my heart. He also suggested that I meditate while wearing the alpha-stim on my head. The affect is pretty good. I am able to hear the high-pitched squeal within a few minutes. I liken the alpha-stim to a trickle charge on a battery. Within 5 minutes, I am feeling a stirring in my bosom. So by 20 minutes, I am feeling bouyant. ( I do wear the alpha-stim for at least 90 minutes a day - the meditation comes last, just before I leave for the day).

During the day, when I remember, I focus inward again. I am able to generate the stirring feeling in my bosom while driving and when I take walking breaks at work (I can't sit too long - lumbar starts to hurt). I am beginning to have a sense that I can, through practice, fell like that all the time. That would be wonderful!

There are other effects that I have noticed. I am more aware of my body all the time. I am more sensitive to it's needs. Whenever I eat, I need to floss. I can feel the stuff between my teeth and I don't like it.