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NOW IT IS THE MORNING. I have slept 6 hours. I spoke with my Brother Richard yesterday from the hospital. This is his second time in the hospital in 3 months. I worry about him.

The spatial affects I was seeing last night were strange. The testual displays in the game seemed to have 3D layers, and they were undulating as if small waves of water were passing over them. When I looked away from the game display to the compuer desktop, it appeared as if the windows were moving in a spiral, sucking things inward, but they were trying to keep their positions, so only the corners were affected, then they would snap bakc, as if the spiral drain like effect stopped all of a sudden.

During the day yesterday, I was hearing things that were not there. I kept hearing my phone ringing, but it was not - it was a muffled ringing. I would also hear a constant high pitched noise. At one point,I was hering the faint sound of a woman's voice singing. It sounded like it was in an echo chamber, but faint - like she was far away. She was singing to a rhythm of 1950s style music, something upbeat and catchy. It sounded like English, but I did not understand what she was singing. This went on for several minutes

I also had to go to the bathroom a lot yesterday. I had to leave the theater projection room 3 times duing the Harry Potter movie. The urine was coming out with so much pressure, I could feel splash back drops all the way back to my elbows, so it took a long time to wash up.

I had the sleep study done on Tuesday, and got the results yesterday. The current pressure of my CPAP machine is 10 (I thought it was 5). IT will be increased to 14. This is very good news.

I have stopped taking spirulina and omega 3 fatty acids. I was taking maximum volume of each. When I started taking spirulina, I was very physically active. I was constantly binging between meals. The spirulina stopped that. But I am not as active now, so maybe I don't need it. The omega 3 fatty acids are fat - it is an oil. I am trying to see if this will lower my weight without exercise, because I cannot exercise - too painful. For the last few days, my right hip hurts very much when I get up from a seated position, almost to the point of stopping me from getting up.

The lady that administered the sleep test to me was named Mary. I think her last name was Polish, and started with a Z. She never said it aloud, and I could not read her name tag. She had a half smile and slurred speech. I realized a few days afterward that this was evidence of a stroke. Her half smile was very cute, and I liked her from the start. She was from Detroit, and had a tatoo on the underside of her left wrist of the outline of a star. She was hiding it by holding a piece of paper over it in her right hand. She was very intelligent, dressed in nurses garb. The sleep study was done at a hospital. She never said so, but I knew she had children. One give away was a small bag she had with her as we left the hospital together - she had to escort me out. It had handprints all over it of a child's hand. It look like the child had dipped his hand in paint and touched the fabric. Each hand print was a different color. I told her about our new puppy, and she told me about her dog and 2 ferrets. There was an awkward moment in our last few moments together. I wanted to ask her out, and I knew she wanted me too. But I want to marry within the Church, so I didn't. I keep thinking about her. If I ever see her again, I am going to ask her.

I should explain about the dog. I was keeping this information secret until Amy got back from her honeymoon. There was an attempted breakin at my apartment 2 mights before I left for California. They did not succeed. The perp tried to get passed the deadbolt using a very large crow bar, as evidenced by the scratches on my door jamb and the warps in my door. The crow bar has 2 prongs in the leveraging end, so there were 2 scratch marks and two warped pinches in the door. The tips of the prongs were 2 inches apart, indicating that this crowbar was huge, maybe 6 feet long.

Emily is very visible in the apartment complex. She often goes to the pool. When she left for California, her car was parked right in front of the building. It is the only red car, so it was easy to see that it was not moving for several days. Since there was no light coming from her bedroom, and I have sealed my window over with tarps because ot insomina, the perp thought no one was there.

I have put a brace on the front door to keep it closed at night, made from a 1 by 8 piece of wood. The front clost is 4 feet away from the fornt door, and parallel. Placing the wood on the ground snugly between them, the front door willl never open unless it is pushed with so much force at the top of the door, that the door folds back. It is a metal door.
I have also paid extra for the alarm system to be activated, and I finally caved in to Emily's request for a dog. She has asked 3 times, and I believe it was for security reasons.

The dog is a black and white Shitsu. Emily has named her Shou-Shou. She is adorable. I love playing with her. The feelings of love and affection just flow out of me to that dog. She makes me so happy, I don't mind the extra work it takes to have her here.

We are training her to use pee pads. We bought a gate to seal her into the kitchen, so she stays over the linoleum, until she doesn't make mistakes. I can tell she is trying, but I believe she sometimes can't hold it long enough to make it to the pee pad. She is teething. I bought her a stuffed toy back and white puppy that is her same size to sleep with. I use the puppy to wrestle with her, so she will learn not to bite humans, only toys. We take naps together.