Ouch

I forgot to create a set of functions for the project at work, and had to do them over the weekend.  I have been working for a week now without the spinal cord stimulator.  The neuropathy has been continuing in all my joints, but the stimulator blocked all the  pain from the hips down.

Oh, do my knees and ankles hurt.   The pain keeps me awake.   I have asked my PCP for strongwer pain meds for night time.

The craziness at work is overwhelming.  The manipulation and lies and lack of attention is dumb-founding

A bag of medication is missing from my apartment.  I think the workmen took it.  It was just anti-coagulant.  I will call to get some more.   Maybe the dog took it.

I am trying to be positive, but it is hard.

I haven't confirmed who sent me the Lousie Hays CD of 101 Power THoughts.   I am so glad to have it.  It helps.

I had a dream that I was singing "You are my Sunshine" to Lily when she was 4 years old, and getting ready for a nap.   It was blissful.   I had the feeling that she will be a healer, and people would seek her out for help

I had another dream where I was tearing my body apart as payment in order to gain passage through a dungeon.  At each juncture, I had to pull another thing off.  When I pulled out my teeth, they were as long as fingers.

When I play fetch with Shou Shou, sometimes the ball stops right under her tummy.   She will spin around looking for it, sometimes more than once, until one of her feet hit it, and it moves within her range of vision.   very funny.

I have been having trouble getting into the office at work.  I enter the code into the door lock, but when I twist/pull the handle, it only opens one inch, and gets caught on something.  I thought it was the fact that it was cold outside that was the problem.  This typically happened at 8Am, so there was not many cars in the parking lot.  Finally, it happened after I watched someone get in thru the door.  So I experimented.  I was the problem.  My reaction time was too delayed.  I didn't realize this.  So now, after I punch in the code, I twist/pull the handle as fast as I can, and I can always open it.

I have been checking my charge codes weekly, and it looks like there is a constant stream of codes, but not much of a buffer.   The boss says there should always be 80 charge codes available.  THat would be 240 hours, or 6 weeks worth of charge codes.   My buffer is around 30 to 40 charge codes.  It used to be 60 to 80, but shrank to half its size