The Benefit of a Good Night's Sleep

I have been getting a Reflexology massage each friday for 2 nights now, right after work.   Then I go and buy some Fiji Water, and drink it all that night and the next day.  Fiji water taste wonderful to me, so it is easy to get myself tyo drink a lot.

The reflexology treatment breaks up the toxins that have settled in the body.   so the water is necessary to flush tem out.  Otherwise, they just settle back into the body at various places.

My feet look 5 times better than they have over the last 5 years because of these treatments.

And I sleep well on Friday nights

It had been a hard week.   I mis-managed my meds again, and this time it was serious.  I forgot to pick up my refill of Xanax on the evening I needed too.  So I went 2 days without Xanax. 

One the second day, I felt depressed, groggy, slow moving and clouded thoughts.   What made it serious is that I could not figure out why I felt this way.   I could not remember about the Xanax right away.   I finally figured it out, and sacrificed my lunch-period to go get it.  I felt better quickly.

When I awoke this morning, my brain had figured out a big design issue in the project I am doing that I did not have a clear idea of what to do.   I had partial ideas, but I just didn't pay attention to thisd because I was 100% involved on the part I am creating now.

I have seen this pattern regularly.   When I get a good night's sleep, and sleep about 12 hours, I get wake up with really good ideas about whatever is bothering me or is an issue for me.

My peer at work, who I have been callling Sam, is such a pain in the ass.

I have been focusing on the display pportion of the WebApp I am building because I had to do that first in order to create displays that I could put in the design document.   So I have not yet created any datasbase tables. 

I did create a Java Bean that will be associated with a tabble this next week.   Typically, you create the table, then the bean.  Because of this, my peer assumed that I was doing somethign wrong.  In our last project meeting, when I spoke about starting the SQL next week, he blurted out:  "You know you have to create tables before you can write the SQL".   I said "Of, course".   I didn't realize what he had been thinking.   I thought his comment was really weird.   Why would he say such a thing?   Then I reconstructed his bias.   He has probably told this to our supervisor and my other peers.

Sam is poison to any group.  He is "me first" and considers everyone else beneath him.  As you talk to him, you can hear him snort-exhale in such a way that it clearly indicates he is annoyed.  He consistently lies about his progress, claiming successes that don't exist, and points out others failures behind their backs.

He is still working on phase 1.   It is not yet completed.   I an wondering if our supervisor will demand that it be done and deployed before the end of the year, so it can be put on his A&D.  The head of User Acceptance Test has been incommmunicado for 2 days, so something may have happened.   She is the one that is keeping it from being deployed because she won't let Sam lie to her.   Sghe catches him at it, and finds the errors in the code that he says he has fixed, and has not.

As far as Sam is concerned, if you don't know it is not perfect, then it's perfect.   That's all that matters to him.

I keep imaginging myself in my yearly review next January with my Boss once again giving me an "Almost meets expectations" or whatever.   As long as I have that review status, I cannot transfer to a new job.   I envision myslef saying "I quit" as those words exit his lips.    I see this as a day dream every few days.   If I get as "meets expectations", he still has a hold on me until I successfully complete my current assignment.   That's reasonable to me.

But he will be soryy when I am gone.   There is no way Sam, or any other typical -programmer who will be able to maintain this application I am creating.  It is Huge, and only someone real smart will be able to figure out how it works, and all the inter-dependcies so that they can make changes and not break it.  Being smart has no value in my division.   Being able to function when you are half-asleep is seen as far more valuable.   Putting in 16 hour days using only 1/3 of your brain is considered very admirable - they call it working hard.