My Brain is Tired

The puppy has learned to Fetch balls. Now she brings them back to me instead of bringing them to Emily. It's a blast.

I got an email this week from the admin assitant to my boss's boss.
She was supposed to send it in July, but says she just saw it now.

Essentially, everyone under that man is supposed to get a passing grade in 100 hours of training before 30 SEP. I have been doing it super fast. I am half way thru. It is exhausting. I don't think this is an accident. Something intervened and caused her to send that email late. It is internal politics. We are being set up for failure. I will succeed.

I was craving sweets very badly today. I went to the snack room on the first floor, and bought some cookies from a machine. I got 40 cents iin change, Only my index fiunger could fit in the return change slot. I was able to get out the quarter and nickel, but I couldn't even tell if there was a dime in there. Something was in there, I could tell, but I felt nothing like a dime in there. I was not able to get it out. So I switched to the left index finger. I was able to locate the dime easily, and got the dime out in one try. This means there is neuropathy in my hands too, it just isn'y causing pain yet.

I tried going to bed without the heavy pain drugs, just using celebrex, lyrica and zolpidem to sleep. It has been 2 hours - nothing happened, not even remotely close to sleep. I felt rigid, and could not get the tension out of my body.