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I felt better today when I woke up. Saturday I was stumbling around, like I used to before I was using CPAP to assit my breathing at night. My feet were not cold, though, so still better then 3 years ago.

I have realized tonight that the reason I keep staying up late is because I am afraid to go to sleep, that I won't wake up again. It is frustrating and scary to not get enough air.

I remember the first time i really noticed it. I was at work in San Ramon, CA. My office was on the 3rd floor. One day I took the stairs. I was so winded by the time I got to my floor - just 2 flights of stairs. I remember thinkning - this isn't right, why is this happening. I had n0o answer.

I took Emily to go see the new Star Trek movie - it was good. They did some clever plot twists that leave room for a lot of sequels.

I bought a Laz-y-boy char today, to use when I am recuperating from surgery. It is a backup plan, in case I am unable to breathe well while lying on my back. For the first 2 weeks, I won't be able to breathe through my nose very much, perhaps not at all. I have noticed that when I sleep in the car, with my chair tilted at 45 degrees, that is when air passes thru the easiest.